03-03-2017 06:57 PM
home is great, but yeh its a challenge @Bree-RO like i have access to all the ways i can hurt myself now.
and its too hard to use my strategies sometimes because i just dont want to, like i just want to give in and dying would make everything better.
if i was dead i wouldnt have to remember this stuff or feel this pain.
dont get me wrong, i doubt id act on these thoughts tonight, i just wish i could
05-03-2017 12:14 PM
My freedom is an agreement with myself. It's an acceptance and love for who I am that isn't dependent on performance or the will of other people - Renee Yohe
05-03-2017 02:33 PM
Even though I don't want to I've been using my strategies and managing ok. It's hard and it constantly changes but I guess I'm doing my best to get through it.
05-03-2017 03:30 PM
That's great to hear, @redhead thanks for letting us know!
Coping is hard, but most things that are worth it are (unfortunately). It's made harder by the fact that it doesn't feel that way when you're in the thick of it and your own mind is constantly screaming insults at you. But if you can take even half a step forward every day (or one step forward, and half a step back), then six months from now, you'll be able to look back and go "holy shit, I actually got pretty far".