05-03-2017 07:44 PM - edited 05-03-2017 07:47 PM
Sorry to be a gigantic baby once again but I can't fucking do this anymore.
I should know how to cope with things by now and I do but tonight I don't and I can't keep going.
before anyone asks I'm already waiting for suicide call back service but this is too hard
it actually hurts so much and I have been doing so well and that's make it even harder.
I cope with this anymore and I want this to end.
05-03-2017 08:26 PM
@j95 really sorry you're having such a rough evening. It's great you are waiting for SCBS (chat I'm assuming) and hopefully it won't be too long before someone gets back to you. I'm really concerned about your safety. Like @redhead asked, are there strategies or distractions you can use to keep yourself safe?
05-03-2017 08:29 PM
Yeah I'm waiting for SCBS chat still
05-03-2017 08:43 PM
@j95 I encourage you to hang in there for your chat with SCBS. You've mentioned before you are not comfortable with phone but sometimes talking to someone on the phone can make a big difference. The level of support is clearer and more instant.
I really want you to stay safe. SH is a very temporary solution and it will leave you feeling worse later. You have been doing well so far and I have confidence in you that you can pull through this again. You ahve an excellent safety plan precisely for these times and I encourage you to try one or more of the strategies. For example, getting a cuddle with your dogs. Are they nearby?
05-03-2017 08:45 PM - edited 05-03-2017 08:46 PM
It's like my brain is full it's crowded there's no space left in there to think and mums there yelling at me so is dad