23-02-2017 09:00 PM
I usually read a book for a little while before bed and listen to some music.
I have chronic insomnia so even on a good night i only get about 4-5 hrs sleep
But its after i put the book away that the thoughts come and on most nights nightmares take over
23-02-2017 09:06 PM
You ARE worth it and you sound pretty strong to me @Bellababe But I know that sometimes it's hard to believe that; remember that it's okay to hurt and you especially deserve care when you're feeling down.
A book and music sounds really really nice and soothing; is there anything you could do to stop the thoughts taking over once you finish reading? Would listening to music or doing some visualisation while you try to go off to sleep help at all?
I hope you can get some sleep.
23-02-2017 09:13 PM
Well by the time i tutn everything off its usually about 12 30ish. I use my phone and headphones as i share a room at the moment but i don't like going to bed with earphones in.
Ive tried to do deep breathing while im in bed after ive turned everything off but after abit the thoughts come back.
23-02-2017 09:23 PM
I'm sorry it's so hard tonight @Bellababe
It sounds like you've got a good routine going with your music and some deep breathing! That's awesome But I know thoughts can be really hard to challenge. Would you feel up to challenging or reframing anxious thoughts? Or, do you have a cuddly toy or comfort object that you could cuddle when you're in bed? I am all for the healing power of stuffed animals Ooor what about a mantra or a sentence that you could use to remind yourself that you're safe?
@Bree-RO I wondered if maybe you have some more suggestions? I don't have much experience with insomnia I'm sorry.
23-02-2017 09:35 PM
I really struggle all the time and it really sucks the life out if me. I feel very dead inside and have resorted to self hsrm a fair few times as ive found nothing at the time to be helpful in calming the anxiety.
Ive never came up with a mantra as my thoughts still continue to overtake it or i turn to challange the mantra! like what the heck who does that!!!??
23-02-2017 09:37 PM
I have trained myself to enjoy sleeping with headphones but can only play certain kinds of audio such as this -
However if you don't like headphones I definitely find focusing on something really helpful, a positive thought or a passion of yours. Something you enjoy that makes you smile etc. Reading is also an absolute gem.
As @DruidChild mentioned do you find any comfort in stuffed animals?
23-02-2017 09:46 PM
Sometimes when im really enjoying the book ill think about what will happen in the next chapter which can help for a while.
24-02-2017 08:23 AM
hey @Bellababe I sometimes imagine what'll happen in the next chapter of a book too, or the next episode of a tv show. Glad you sometimes find it helpful.
I also think that mantras can be helpful and I totally get the urge to challenge it with your thoughts. When I realised my tendency to do that, I actually typed out the mantra and stuck it on my desk, where I could see it as I was lying in bed. When my thoughts were intruding, I would make myself read the mantra aloud from the bit of paper until there was nothing else in my head. It often took quite a while but it does calm me down. Could you try something like that?
My freedom is an agreement with myself. It's an acceptance and love for who I am that isn't dependent on performance or the will of other people - Renee Yohe
24-02-2017 07:10 PM
So this one was:::
I walked into a pound and was walking around there looking for a puppy to rescue. One of the workers there said "here ill show you this dog" so i followed him into what looked like an intertogation room where the people on the other side cant see you but you can see and hear them . On the other side was a young girl and i began to wonder what was going on amd it was starting to worry me. I really wanted to get out of thr room but the worker was standing in front of the door. Another worker opened a shoot and let a large dog through there. The dog just trotted in and looked friendly. It went up to the girl who was wondering around and she turned to pat it when it came up to her but the dog launched and began attacking her. I couldnt get out of the room and i was forced to watch this girl get mauled to shreds. You could see her internal organs and teeth streaks down her arm legs and face and was hardley recognisable there was blood everywhere! I heard her screams her crying her pain pierced me and her yelling help help and the dog growling and snarling..
I couldnt wake up out of this dream very quickly but eventually when i did break out of it i didnt go backto sleep and was having a very major anxiety attack.