17-04-2017 04:42 PM - edited 17-04-2017 04:43 PM
I'm sorry to read there are so many difficult thoughts going around in your mind at the moment - that has got to be such a challenge!
I am concerned by what you're saying about your birthday that you might be at risk of attempting to take your own life. Are suicidal thoughts present among all the others? Are you safe at the moment?