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Someone please I think I need help

Im 13 I'm always super depressed I self harm nobody in my family knows this I wanna die but I don't if that makes sense I have panic attacks all the time I get super nervous around people sometimes I just wanna disappear if it wasn't for the couple of people who actually care about me I would of killed myself a very long time ago I feel like my whole family hates me sometimes I don't know why I feel this way can't I just be normal everyone in my family probably thinks I'm a ungrateful bitch maybe if my family wasn't so messed up I wouldn't be like this nobody knows this I'm actually really proud that of myself that nobody knows this The only people I actually love are a couple of people that I met online there like family to me I'm so thankful for Grimm if it wasn't for Grimm I would of never met these amazing people sure somebody will look at me and say she's fine I'm not fine I have had lots of practice of keeping my feelings bottled up I only recently started to feel this why maybe like the last 8 or so months. I seriously almost opened up to my art teacher but then I realized and played it off like I was kidding or something. Today my father is like girls don't think you can get anything past your mother and I say ok. They have no fucking idea what I'm going through and they never will I'm 13 I only have to pretend like I'm fine for a couple more years. As soon as I'm 18 I'm outta there. Sorry for the rant. What should I do. And talking to my parents is not a opinion.
nobody
nobodyPosted 26-05-2017 09:46 AM

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lokifish
lokifishPosted 30-05-2017 12:50 PM

Hey @nobody, just wondering how you're going? Did you happen to contact one of the services that've been suggested here?

 

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scared01
scared01Posted 27-05-2017 11:47 AM

hi @nobody

 

welcome to the forums and its a brave thing for you to do to reach out for some help and support

these forums are really great so welcome aboard.

 

your a very strong, stornger than you may think

it does help to have a rant

 

i too am in a simialr situation to you so know your not alone in this

i self harm as well and no one knows about it at all- its easy to hide these when you dont want people to see.

i dont have a supportive family either  so your not alone there either

 

i reccomend you speak to your school counsellor though to get abit of extra support. if you dont want to talk to a school counsellor then i have a big life of support line for you which ill add in a separate comment

 

feel free to ask anything you like, ill answer as much as i can to help you get through

 

but know you are being heard and we are here for you, helping you walk through these thoughts and feelings

 

 

 

i do have a few suggestions that you can do to help yourself
 
1. Self care- make sure you take care of yourself as well, take time out to do the things you like to do. even simple things as a nice relaxing bath, reading your favourite book, watching a funny move, giving your hands and feet a massage
 
2. Do the things your good at-  try and do something you are good at ehihc im sure you have quite a lot- can you name the things your good at? hard i know as it requires thinging good about yourself but please have a go. keep tryng to improve in those areas and remember not everyone is good at everything- its impossible for that so dont be too hard on yourself. when continuing to do the things you like to do it will help keep your self esteem
 
3. try new things- try  a new hobby, something you always wanted to try.. is there anythign you can think of that youd like to try? cooking class? art class? sports?, keep interested in life and exploring the world
 
4. dont give in to those suicide thoughts- use methods to help over come them such as:
Distractions- art, read a book, go for a walk, journal your thoughts, mindfullness, listen to your favourite music, colour in, come on here and chat out your thoughts, watch your fave movie, call a friend and have a chat to them about everyday life- you dont have to mention your thoughts- sometimes jsut talking to someone can help, scribble on paper, rip up some blank pieces of paper, write the negative thoughts out and then ri it up and do something  you like to do
 
 
5, call a helpline- there are heaps of them and some of them have webchat as well ill list a few for you
put them in your phone and when you need some support, overwhelmed, sad, having troubles anything at all dont be afriad to connect with them, they are trained therapists therer to help you ok
 

6. Keep being around the people you find Care- this will keep you feeling something and not worthless which i can tell you your far from it. your life has meaning and even though it may not seem like it your only 13 and still have the rest of your life. if you can think like that then think when your 18 thats your way out and you can lvie your life however you like

 

 
 
scared01
scared01Posted 27-05-2017 11:48 AM

KIDS HELP LINE
 
https://kidshelpline.com.au/
 
ph-  1800 55 1800
 
KHL- also ahs a helpline and information so jump onto their website as well to take  look
 
 
LIFELINE
 
https://www.lifeline.org.au/
 
PH- 12 11 14
 
Lifeline also has resources and support chat as well
 
 
BEYOND BLUE
 
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/
 
PH- 1300 22 4636
 
BB- also has webchat and resources
 
 
SUICIDE CALL BACK SERVICE
 
 
https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/
 
PH- 1300 659 467
 
SCBS- also has webchat and resources
 
 
HEADSPACE
 
https://www.headspace.org.au/
 
 
PH- 1800 650 890
 
HS- also has resources and webchat

 
Ngaio-RO
Ngaio-ROPosted 26-05-2017 12:20 PM

Hey @nobody Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.

You sound like you are in an immense amount of pain. It also sounds like you have a lot of self-awareness and you know what it is you want and don't want to do. Which is amazing. You sound like an amazing person.

 

I get that you don't want to talk to your parents. Even the best parents in the world aren't always the best choice for the first conversation. But it sounds to me like you've worked out that you don't want to carry this weight alone anymore.

So who would you like to talk to? You got super close to talking to your art teacher, what stopped you?

 

Also, I don't know Grimm (I'm pretty sure you mean the show) but I think anything that helps people feel better or gets people through really rough times must be pretty freaking great. I'm so glad you have that and the people it's brought to you, in your life. Do you talk to them about what's going on for you?

 

 
 
Ben-RO
Ben-ROPosted 26-05-2017 12:55 PM

Hey @nobody i thought I'd pop in and say hi too 🙂 we're here to chat more if you'd like. I think it's great that you've been courageous and taken the first step and talked about the tough stuff you're dealing with with us.

 

If you want some more one on one support then i'd also recommend checking out KHL. They're pretty great because you can call them or type to them on a chat thingy- if that's easier for you. You can check them out here. I think they're really great 🙂

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