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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

hi @Bree-RO

 

i was talking to the cousellor i usually speak to, i feel really bad though, i wasnt in a good headspace and i wasnt the most polite and i kinda ignored her suggestions. i couldnt even think straight. i feel terrible so add that one to the list of wrongs so far.

 

people are concerned, dont know why but i  dont really want to see a counselor or anything anymore, i dont know why. its not them its me. i dont know if its all the probing or anything but i just done feel up to it at the momet.

i have pscyh on tuesday and gp on wednesday which i see both of them weekly but ive been cancelling alot and pushing the appointments away.

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

@scared01 Mmm I am hearing you. Feel like it's too much unpacking at the moment between psych/counsellor/gp?

That's understandable. Have you thought about trying some different counselling/therapy options, then whatever works with you stick to?Just wondering if you have too much going on?

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

i have a heap to do and ive already reduced it to least amount as i can @Bree-RO

 

i see my gp once a week

i see my psych once a week (SP psych atm)

 i get a phone call from ataps once a week ( comes with the suicide prevention program)

a psychiatrist every 2-3 weeks as well

 

then i see other health professionals for injuries

 

so if i add all them in on a week they are all there

it would be phone call, psych, gp and psychiatrist and what ever other health professional such as podiatrist all in one week, then i also have the kids helpline that i often use and pretty much talk to them every week or two or more if need be

 

 

 

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

me and mum still arent talking, she wont even look at me, she wont talk to me and wont respond to msgs.

im a failure Smiley Sad

 

why am i this way? i hate myself so much

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

Hey @scared01 :-)

 

Sorry to hear you're feeling like a failure. Would you like to talk about what's going on with your mum?

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

i guess so @JanaG

 

 

she thinks because i go out now, that im sneaking around. yet everytime i tell her where im going even if its an appointment she gets angry at me.

 

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

That sounds really frustrating, @scared01! What does she think you're doing when you're 'sneaking around'? 

 

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

i dont really know @JanaG

the first thing that comes to mind is im doing something illegal  (drugs etc) or that im meeting up with a guy.

both very untrue

i msged her last night as she wouldnt talk to me and said that i told her i was struggling with my mental health, i find that sometimes i need to get out of the house and soemtimes just go for a drive to help clear my mind which is what i did last night.

before i went out i even msged her as i was outside and said, im going for a drive i might go and get the girls an ice cream which is what i did and as she didnt get the msg i actually rang her when i got there to also let her know where i was

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

She sounds really concerned about you, @scared01. You said "because I go out now," which gives me the impression that going out to clear your mind is a recent occurrance. Am I understanding you correctly?

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Re: Depression- Really Struggling

@JanaG 

its not going out so much its more getting treatment such as chiro, podiatrist psychologist and gp.

 

i still hardley go out at all other than that and when i do go out i tell her everywhere im going and when and all the rest.

 

shes not concerned @JanaG shes annoyed at me. ever since i told her i was struggling she treats me even more like sh*t

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