01-05-2017 04:54 PM
My temporary case manager pulled me up on my eating disorder again today. When i was in hospital a bit over a week ago they re-flagged some concerns and reported it to case management.
I'm terrified they'll force feed me. I wouldn't cope with that, I'm already way too fat.
01-05-2017 06:22 PM
Heya @redhead sounds like an understandable worry. Has this happened to you before? I know that a symptom of ED is a slightly different perception of how we look, is there anyway you could have a chat to butterfly foundation? Might be able to offer a separate perspective...
Are you home tonight or hospital?
02-05-2017 06:46 PM
@redhead is there a nurse that you've gotten on well with? Or a Doc? I know sometimes it can seem really unfair and uncool but they are there to make sure you're safe.. Are there any other patients that you get on well with?
03-05-2017 05:43 PM
@redhead i guess they have to look out for your health and passing out, especially if you're not able to push back on the ED enough to eat could be really risky. I am thinking maybe you are not feeling like you want that kind of support right now though. Is that something we can try and unpack a little?
07-05-2017 11:32 PM
This is probably the main catalyst that helped me slowly start eating more, and reaching that point in which i felt my ED no longer controlled me
09-05-2017 03:10 PM - last edited on 09-05-2017 03:29 PM by Ben-RO
@Mights it's good you were able to beat the ED
I just can't eat normally though. The amount of normal calories is too scary and sometimes i can't even drink my favourite tea because I was an idiot for putting something in my mouth.
The ED is messing with my heart. It's scary but right now I'm hoping it kills me.
09-05-2017 03:30 PM
Hey @redhead i can hear how hard it is to push back on the ED right now, or to even feel like pushing back