14-04-2017 08:50 PM
I wish, right?
In other news I've had a tight chest all day. I'm blaming it on this lesson plan that's due in two hours that I still need to finish. *sighs* I'm too scared to go to the doctor alone and I can't tell my mum.
15-04-2017 05:54 PM
I can relate to not getting along with a sibling... it can really be frustrating and I think I've learnt after a very long time to try and let it go. Now, it's like my sibling is a roommate with whom I don't talk to a lot (that was the case before, anyway). But now, I just don't feel like making a huge effort to change things when nothing will end up being changed anyway. We just get on with our own lives and do our own thing. I know this probably isn't the 'typical' sibling relationship and might seem sad to a lot of people, but it works for us now and things are okay - we still talk sometimes but it's not a lot.
Do you think maybe seeing your relationship with your brother as more of a distant one would help with letting go?
Also, is your tight chest gone now? Sorry if I missed something, was wondering why you can't tell your mum about it?
16-04-2017 08:07 PM
Also, I've had a tight chest for... two or three days now. The good news is that I finally told my mum. I casually told her when talking about being sore with my ear and my chest (heh heh sneaky me ) The reason why I couldn't tell her was because I didn't want her to know/worry/whatever. I'm just dumb like that.
@mousecatcher I want to be able to feel it, and then let it go to the air, to fade into nothingness.
18-04-2017 03:02 PM
Good on you for telling your mum @N1ghtW1ng! Is there any way that you could avoid situations that will frustrate you with your brother? Do you feel like you're able to express your frustration to your family assertively?
18-04-2017 10:11 PM
Sometimes when I really want to get stuff off my chest, I'll write it all down on paper, like in a journal. Maybe even a letter to the person about how I'm feeling, but not giving it to them to see. I was wondering if you think that might be helpful in making it more real? Maybe forgiveness can help with letting go too? But i know it's hard. I think it takes time
That's good you told your mum -nice way of sneaking it into the conversation It's not dumb at all to not want her to worry, you're being considerate But it's important to take care of yourself too!
21-04-2017 03:53 PM
I know you've spoken to your parents before about your brother, but have you spoken to them about any of the stuff you touched on regarding them in the letter? I'm thinking particularly about the feelings of different treatment and favouritism.
Maybe if that felt more addressed, some of the anger at your brother would lessen. Or maybe even them knowing how you feel would spur them into taking more action with your brother.