Hey everyone, I'm sorry I haven't been active on my thread lately. Nothing personal, I've just been dealing with a bit and struggling myself, and sometimes I go on other threads and/or just scroll through the forums and have moments where I don't want to talk to anyone.
Just an update for you all here. I saw my Psychiatrist on the 18th, the session was mixed. I told him about the Psychologist I saw before Christmas, how she said she'd get back to me but she never did. I emailed the Executive Assistant (she's the only one that helps me if I need something forwarded onto my Psychiatrist and lets me know his replies etc) cause I have no way of contacting him myself, but she was a bit rude and basically said it was my fault the Psychologist didn't get back to me.
A few days ago, my Psychiatrist must've contacted this Psychologist because I got a call from the Telehealth company saying the Psychologist can see me. I just said I'll think about it because I'm in a mood where I don't want to see any professionals, or be around anybody, apart from my parents because I have no choice there haha (they're kind and supportive, yes I live with them).
Anyway the Psychiatrist session was just talking about me having a bad Christmas and New Years and feeling suicidal (I'm safe), and how I still feel that way often (once again I'm safe, I don't act on stuff, I just have very intrusive, strong, dark thoughts), aswell as my depression, etc. The usual stuff really. And he kept saying how important it is that I need a Psychologist but I keep explaining that I've had so many bad traumatic experiences with them.
I saw a different GP today, this one is my GPs "Buddy Doctor" which means that if my GP is away, his office is next door so he can see my GPs patients, and stuff like that. He's an older Doctor and one of the Directors there. He was nice but he said he can't do anything for me and that I need a Psychologist also. I felt bad for wasting his time so I apologised and I said they told me at reception to see you until I can see my GP.
I don't feel like my GP is doing enough for me, mentally and with my physical pain of a bunion (I had to tell him 5 times just to get an X-Ray & Blood Test).
Sorry for rambling everyone, there's probably more but that's all I can think of right now. I haven't booked another appointment to see my Psychiatrist yet. I asked my Psychiatrist if EMDR therapy may be helpful, he said it could work, and I asked him if he can try and see if the ones on the Telehealth company who do it could help me, and if he can contact them. I'll have to wait until whenever I see him next to find that out.
If you read this far, thank you. I appreciate it. I'm sorry for rambling like I mentioned. (No pressure for anyone to reply, I'm just tagging everyone who has responded here. I hope that's ok, otherwise mods, feel free to remove the tags).
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