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Sorry I haven’t replied till now, I had a busy weekend with Vidcon, but I had a really good time. I enjoyed the opening show and it helped cheer me up. Then on Saturday I went to a market that was on with Mum and my sister before arriving at Vidcon. I had a good time at the market and especially at the actual convention; on Saturday I mostly just looked at the merchandise the creators were selling and bought a few posters, pins, a plushie and on Sunday a t-shirt, so it was a pretty good haul. I met most of the creators I was a fan of; those being Sultan from the videos I showed before, TheAmaazing, Wolfychu and Jordan Sweeto. I was really happy meeting them! If you’re interested look them up on YouTube. Also I saw a panel with the Try Guys (I actually didn’t know who they were before Vidcon, but I enjoyed the panel) and that was fun. Anyway this reply is getting long so I’ll tell you about Sunday later, but Sunday was really good too.

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Hi @Bento,

 

It sounds like you had a really great time at the convention! We would be interested to hear how Sunday went for you too Smiley Happy

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Wow @Bentoit sounds like you had a lot of fun at Vidcon! And it's really cool how you got to see creators you're a fan of. I would be so star-struck haha 

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Sorry I took a while to reply again. Yesterday I had another anxiety attack after reading some really upsetting news and I’m still trying to recover.
On Sunday I went to see the panels that had my favourite creators in it. First I caught part of a talk about using your platform for good, but the most important two panels for me were the mental health discussion and the animators power hour. Jaiden Animations, who is perhaps my favourite YouTube creator and animator, was part of both of them, and the animator panel also had Maaz, Sultan, Jordan Sweeto and TheOdd1sOut. The mental health panel was really great for me because they touched on a lot of stuff about dealing with mental struggles. The animator panel was really good too. Those people have really helped me with their content because watching their videos gives me something to look forward to, and it’s great to see them in person. They’re such positive people, I wish more people could be like them. I also saw the send off show which included the animators playing a You Don’t Know Jack game which was funny also.
Last weekend at Vidcon was a big highlight of my year. I think it might have been the happiest I’ve been in a very long time. I just don’t want to throw away all that positivity now that it’s over and I’ve come crashing back down to earth.
I’d like to show some videos by Jaiden. They’ve really helped me and they could help other people here too.
why sleep when you can convince yourself you should worry about everything? Other Animator Buddies! Nellie: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHimPYk1csmmOSGKF4pKelg?&ab_channel=NellieTart Jay: https://www.youtube.com/xjaystarzx Banimation: ...
life, amirite? ♥ The Team ♥ Atrox: https://twitter.com/AtroxChobatsu Denny: https://www.instagram.com/90percentknuckles/ DavidBaronArt: http://davidbaronart.tumblr.com/ Pivots: https://www.youtube.com/user/ThePivotsXXD MorganToast: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHimPYk1csmmOSGKF4pKelg Duckdee:
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Here are just three of Jaiden’s videos that I think will be the most helpful. She has plenty of other videos, and a lot of them are just funny stories as well as more personal topics, but she always has a sense of humour and optimism in her videos which is really great.
 
Self Improvement: https://youtu.be/2RQH5Ycj1C8
 
I hope you enjoy!!

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Hi @Bento, it is okay to take time away from replying. Please don't ever feel pressured to respond to us here, we understand. It is great that you got to see your favourite animator, that must have been very cool and surreal. The fact that you are focusing on this positive experience to get you through your toughest times is really amazing. It is also so awesome that you have found something you really enjoy which has been the highlight of your year. We are all sorry to hear that you had another anxiety attack. I was wondering what has helped you to recover? It goes without saying one of these is probably animations.. but has anything else been helpful? Heart Thanks for sharing.

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Sorry, but I need to take the discussion into a bit of a different direction for a little bit. It still links into what we discussed before. I’ll go back to talking about solutions after this, just bear with me.
 
Today I went with my mum and sister to Collingwood, Brunswick and Fitzroy because there were markets and a gallery exhibition on that I wanted to see. And all throughout the day, I felt really anxious. I remember in the car my heart was beating and I my mind was racing. I tried taking deep breaths at one point but my stress levels were just so high when nothing had happened to trigger my anxiety yet. The upsetting news article was on Australian climate change, and it was a very bleak and hopeless article. I showed it to my family so they could help, but nothing could calm me down after reading that. That night I knew that when I woke up the next morning, the memory would hit me with a wave of despair, and it did. I felt anxious still all day, and then came the time when I had to walk my dog. I tried asking Mum to come with me, but they were too busy watching the grand final so I just gave up and went by myself. I didn’t want to go alone because I knew that when I was feeling emotionally vulnerable, the worst thing for me is to be alone with all the negative thoughts racing through my head. And sure enough, during the walk I got increasingly mad and anxious; I remember catastrophising things in my mind as I was scowling, unable to calm down and think clearly. And when I got back, I snapped at my mum and sister and went in my room, where I was overcome with guilt for overreacting. I apologized and everything was fine, but I still haven’t recovered. The whole time we were out I felt insecure, and I just wanted to be back home where I could relax. But even still, there’s this anxiety in the back of my head.
I think you’ll be pretty hard pressed to find someone more worried and anxious about the planet than me. It is one of the most severe worries to have, and I have tried all these things to calm my nerves; looking up good environmental news, buying sustainable products that help environmental causes, using a keep cup and tote bags... but I still feel powerless, like nothing I do will matter in the end. I can’t attend a rally because of my anxiety; and if just seeing the signs carried by people after last rally could make me terrified, how mentally damaging would it be if I was right in the middle of one? I would love to believe that these protests will bring positive change, but every single time it seems like things only get worse.
I’ve had a miserable year. Every year I pray for things to be better for me and the world, but after this year, I’m extremely close to losing hope for the future. And I don’t want to. I want to live, but living right now is so hard for me.
 
Sorry, I don’t mean to be negative and bring everyone down. This is just how I really feel deep down.

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Hey @Bento

I've been following your thread for the past couple of weeks, and I can really hear how much anxiety has been negatively affecting your life, particularly anxiety related to issues around climate change and environmental concerns. I can only imagine how difficult it must to be living with such constant stress and pressure. 

I really want to validate your concerns, environmental issues are a huge issue that our global community is facing, and it can feel incredibly stressful and upsetting when it seems as if not enough is being done to address such a pressing problem. It makes sense to feel worried; it makes sense to feel anxious and concerned. 

However, just as important as the planet, is your own well-being and mental health. In the same way that you are taking the care and and concern to minimize your impact on the planet, it is vital that you take similar actions to protect yourself and your mental health. I can see that you do have the start of some really good coping strategies, knowing when you need company or social support can be a fantastic protective factor. It might be helpful that if you are feeling that you might be on the cusp of an anxiety attack (like how you felt before your walk) to not push those limits, but rather listen to your body, and give it some space. You can always pick up what you planned to do a little later, or ask for some help to complete the task you planned to do. 

It might also be a good idea to take awareness of your triggers. For example you mentioned that keeping up to date on current climate change issues can really upset you, and even prompt some really severe and long lasting anxiety. While it may seem counter-intuitive, or not "right", maybe it might be better for you to avoid the news. You can block certain websites (like news companies) from appearing on your social media, and not picking up a news paper could help avoid learning triggering information. 

I also really want to suggest that you might look into seeing a mental heath professional. I am not sure if you are currently seeing anyone, but a therapist or counsellor could be a really good resource to help you come up with some more coping strategies that suit you. On top of this, you would be able to discuss a lot of the fear and anxieties you're currently struggling with, without concern of judgement or being dismissed.

Let us know how you go! Heart Heart

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I feel the same

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Since the weekend I’ve been feeling a little better, but I’d like to stress that unfortunately avoiding upsetting news is not that easy. No matter how hard I try, it’s a garuntee I will come across newspapers, news on TV and posters of bad news out in the open. Earlier this year during my time studying video game design, I heard about a lot of bad news from the news bulletins in the building the college was in. It was around the time of the election when it seriously felt like the nation was falling apart, and in hindsight I should have known that with all the negativity and hate everywhere the election could have only ended in tears, which it did. So sadly that made my time studying that course very unhappy, although the actual course itself wasn’t really what I wanted to do anyway. Getting back into the subject on isolation, I felt pretty lonely during that course because I couldn’t click with anyone else in the class. A lot of the other people in that class were the type of people that are obnoxiously loud and completely unaware of their surroundings, the type of people that infuriate me. I’m not trying to say I was completely in the right either by being so irritable, but I was just in a bad mind frame during my time there.

That all being said, however, I want to try and bring up some more positive things. A few days ago when I was feeling low I decided to help myself feel better by volunteering for the Greens party. The other day I got an e-mail for them linking me to a Facebook page I can be a part of, however I feel nervous on following up. To be honest I’m worried that it will be confronting for me, even if it is ultimately for good. So right now I’m not sure what I should do about it. I’ve also been doing independent radio for a while now, recently I’ve been a regular co-host on two of their shows, one on video games and another on arts and culture, both things I’m into, and I’ve met a few people there. I think I was asked before in this discussion if I met anyone I could be friends with, and there is a transgender girl I’ve talked to a little bit, but I’m a bit nervous about asking if we can hang out more. Unfortunately for about two months now I’ve been taking a break from going to radio because I’ve been feeling too anxious to go back, and everytime I feel like I’m ready to go back my anxiety escalates again. I really would like to go back, but I’m too afraid... I’m sorry if that didn’t sound too positive, but I really do want to overcome these fears.