Thank you for coming here and sharing your story with us. It is difficult to open up about traumatic events and you have been incredibly brave and courageous to do so here. I just wanted to let you know that I edited your post and added a trigger warning for our other users.
It can be difficult to have self-love and believe in ourselves. Negative thoughts are overwhelming at times and that's okay. ReachOut has a factsheet here on challenging negative thoughts that might be useful for you.
You don't need to like sex if you don't want to either, although there are a lot of pressures in around us to like it, especially if you're in a relationship, it's always a personal choice.
As you've already mentioned, a lot of our resources won't be helpful to you as they are Australian based but our factsheets are open for you to read. These ones hereand here are on sexual assault and might help you gain some understanding.
Re: I’m ready to open up about what happened to me.
That’s perfectly fine. I impulsively removed it due to the fact having it up was freaking me out a little bit. I’ll click on everything you sent me here, I appreciate you taking the moment to contact me back. I’m determined not to have those two years define who I am. One way or another I’ll find self love, or else what’s the point right? But thank you. Enjoy your days. ❤️
I can see that you've removed your post and sorry to hear you were freaking out about having it there. I'm sorry to hear how anxiety provoking that was for you I'm glad to hear you'll look through the resources @Jess1-RO has linked
Your determination is inspiring! Please let us know how you feel after reading through the resources