TW- what’s holding me back from suicide?

[WheresMySquishy]

@Bananatime04  I love hearing relaxing sounds before I sleep! I wish it played more kinds of sounds other than just a heartbeat though.

Goodnight! Sweet dreams!

[xXLexi_Lou122Xx]

Hey @Bananatime04.
I'm so sorry that you were assaulted. That isn't fun, and my siblings do it all the time. Only playfully, but I know if they keep doing it in the future, they can get arrested... :/

I'm so sorry I wasn't on. Turns out the thing that I needed sorting out did not get sorted out.
I'm at musical rehearsal today until 1 PM, but when I get back, I'll try to be on for you.

How are you this morning? Did the fan help you?

[Andrea-RO]

Hey @Bananatime04, 

I just wanted to echo the great support that a couple of the other users were giving you last night. I think it was incredibly brave of you to share what must have been a very difficult experience with your counsellor, and I am so proud of you for taking what must have been a hard step. Sometimes it can feel very uncomfortable to seek out the help and support we need, but in the long run reaching out to someone can often change things for the better

I also really wanted to congratulate you for doing really well last night in respecting your own boundaries, and using self-care to make you feel better when you were feeling a little low. You really set an amazing example of how to be kind to yourself for anyone who visits the forum :smileyface: 

Did you want to share any more self-care strategies with the forum that you use to make you feel better when you're feeling down?

[WheresMySquishy]

Hi @Bananatime04! Just checking in. How are you feeling today?

[Bananatime04]

No @xXLexi_Lou122Xx I was sexually abused 😔
Most siblings are like that with each other.. my brother always hurt me but now that he’s older he doesn’t do it anymore which is usually what happens
Hope you had fun at your musical rehearsal! Sorry it took me so long to reply.. the fan always helps

[xXLexi_Lou122Xx]

Oh...
I’m sorry @Bananatime04.
That really hurts...

Rehearsal was okay...
Anyways,
How are you this evening?

[Bananatime04]

Hey
Thanks @Andrea-RO
I don’t usually do self care because I feel like I should be in pain which makes me be really hard on myself..
but on the occasion that I do use self care I would have a bath with bath bombs, do a face mask, take Eddie for a walk, go for a run, listen to music, talk to my friends, watch YouTube or Netflix and coming here!
They do make me feel good but I usually don’t think I deserve to feel good so I have to force myself to do one of them then I just can’t stop!

[Bananatime04]

@WheresMySquishy hey! I’m actually feeling pretty ok

@WheresMySquishy and @Tiny_leaf I went driving! My dads been teaching me and I got to reverse for the first time.. that could’ve ended badly because there was a tree but I did it!! What have you been up to?

[Bananatime04]

I’m sorry for hurting you @xXLexi_Lou122Xx

I was going ok.. wbu

[Bananatime04]

Heyyyy @queenP are you still on? 😆