I’m sorry for everything you’ve gone through. And I’m really impressed that you are reaching out because that’s a good sign that your use of psychs is still within your control. Bottom line, I would say that if the use of something is changing your behaviour for the negative, it has probably become an addiction. As you said, last time it happened and your threw away job and girlfriend, it made you realise that it was an addiction. Well done for keeping us posted and for getting into the army and your art degree. It sounds like you are on a good track and to me the most important thing is that you’re self-aware of what’s going on, you’re assessing yourself and your use of psychs and I think this means you will keep yourself in a good place.