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[j95]

Thanks @hartley_ i guess i value relationships so much because i want a positive one so much because i've never had that... especially between mum and i. does that even make sense haha? :\ yeah mum didnt show the first time a couple of weeks ago, after she offered to see me, and then i just went out of my way to organise something again but im the bottom of her priority list as usual. 

i have a mate from work who i didn't expect to go out of his way to make sure i'm doing ok and I think I value him a lot, almost like family and i've got my brother too.

i dont think i can talk to those friends about today... no way, they will just think im taking things way way too seriously so i'm going to just pretend everythings all good. some friends i can talk to about how i feel about things (like my work friend), others not so much.

[hartley_]

yeah i understand @j95 i feel the same about some of my friends. like they are on different levels - some that i can talk to about certain serious things and some i cant/wouldnt even go there

maybe they just arent as mature and switched on as you about things in that way and its not personal?

either way it still sucks when its happening to you. maybe removing yourself from the sitch is easier? 

im glad you have made a new friend in work thats really great. would you ask them if they want to hang or go to the footy or something on the weekend?it could be the start of something awesome  

and your new housemate sounds cool? (from last i read about him?) 

Sometimes good friends come out of unsuspecting places

[j95]

yeah thats true about friends @hartley_ i know that this friend at work, i never really gave him a chance and thought he was a bit simple but he is the greatest and cares so much. i might ask him about the weekend, see what happens
and yeah my new housemate is awesome - so much fun, we went out last night and although i cant remember much haha

thanks for your help too

[redhead]

Won't be able to make gr because my phone is about to die.


Hope everyone is well

[Ben-RO]

Nooooo @redhead

[j95]

This is sooo weird but just my thoughts.

Sometimes I think a lot about how far I have come and the things I have been through and it doesn't even feel I'm the same person. Like I find it so weird that here I am 20 years old, the same person who 10 years ago even 5 years ago was battling so much. Like I am that same kid... But look at me now!!

[stonepixie]

Can we stop for a moment and appreciate just how awesome goats are?

[j95]

Why are goats popping up everywhere on here right now??

[j95]

breathe Jay, just breathe 

[redhead]

@j95 are you ok


Redhead: feeling ok today, it's weird after the day I had yesterday. Hopefully this is a good sign that my mood is cycling back up. Here's hoping I go home tomorrow.