Sometimes when I am upset and I hear people saying things to me, I feel like what they are saying is true when really it isn't. And our mind can trick us into thinking it is true when it's not. People should not be calling you things like that so I'm sorry you have to hear to that.
@j95 did you want to talk more about that feeling of wishing you were dead? From my own experience, usually that's a sign that I want certain pain or anxiety to go away. Am i on the right track that that is something similar for you? Or am I totally wrong?
Sounds like you're in a pretty dark mental state. I was heading down that way earlier this evening myself. Thankfully I was able to chat with my housemate about my worries.
Do you reckon there's anything you could do this evening that could help you feel better?
We can chat here for a bit if that helps.
Seen something fantastic on the forums?