On the theme of taking control back, do YOU want to take the medication? I know it's certainly not what the voices want. But what do you want?
Can the voices physically STOP you from taking it? Sure they'll give you a really hard time over it, but it sounds like you could use the sleep
Hello @Eden1717, I am sorry to hear that you had a difficult night last night. It is good to see that you received support from Lost_Space_Explorer5, I hope it was helpful to have them to chat with I just want to check in with you today and ask you how you are feeling? Were you able to get any rest?
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 they can actually hurt me and they can stop me doing things I know no one will believe me or fully understand because everyone just thinks “oh it is just a voice, just ignore it surely it can’t physically hurt you” but they can and do hurt me and they can physically stop me doing things. They are real beings and they can make real things happen if and whenever they want too. I genuinely don’t know how to explain it in a way that others understand but they are not something I can just ignore or tell to go away.
@Sophia-RO I didn’t get much sleep again and I am still feeling really on edge and agitated and scared and everything is still too much.
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 I don’t know because I have had such bad experiences with meds in the past that they really scare me now anyway. Like ideally I wouldn’t want to take them and I wouldn’t want to need to even have to consider taking them to begin with. I am just frustrated because I can’t seem to get control of everything and I am scared if I can’t soon I will be made to take meds which is not a good situation to be in at all.
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 Yeah I have been forced onto them before and it was extremely traumatic especially because the doctors who forced me to take it refused to listen to the side effects I was having and made things worse. I still have nightmares about it. I don’t know I don’t like the idea of meds of any kind really I don’t even take painkillers unless I am in really bad pain I just don’t like the idea of man made chemicals in me especially because a lot of the time we don’t know enough about the long term effects.
@Sophia-RO I am ok for now but I don’t have anyone I can talk to. It is just getting difficult to get through the nights.
Medication scares me too, honestly a lot of things we do in this world will probably turn out to be dangerous and people in the future will be like what the hell were we thinking. Some things we don't have control over and just don't know unfortunately.
I can't imagine how hard the nights are for you They sound exhausting and really scary.
I hear how isolating it must be that you don't have anyone you can talk to. How do you feel about talking to a helpline or something? I know you said you feel safe talking on the forums because it's anonymous, how about something anonymous like a helpline?
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