I'd love to be able to give you the right comforting answer to that @j95 but I would only be guessing.
Perhaps it's worth exploring more with your counsellor, and it may take some time. Have they given you any helpful strategies to use for when your feeling this way?
@j95 I don't really know what to say to add to this conversation.
I'm kind of the opposite. I want my abusive mother out of my life and i hate her. I kinda get wanting a motherly figure but every woman I turned to for that role gave up on me because I was too hard. Now I'm content to mother myself.
Trying to make my misery
just a piece of my history
A little less victim a little more victory
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That's why it's confusing for me
I hate my mum so much I absolutely fucking hate her but for some reason I want her around @redhead like as I want her to love me even though I know she never has and never will
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