Hello
Hi,
I feel alone and I feel like nobody wants to hear me.
I know I am very overweight and extremely ugly, I have to put up with it myself every day of my life. I hate the way I walk, talk and I am dumb in everything I do.
I feel weak, alone, misunderstood, ugly, sad, confused and a burden on everyone. I feel confused as I got no idea where I want to work. I feel stupid and sad because my grandma has cancer and I haven’t seen her, all I have done is make her miserable, I want to talk to her which I can’t do it through a phone call, because at that moment I don’t want to say and I don't know if she wants to talk to me.
My parents never show me affection, they never hug me, or give me a proper response to my special moments or properly spend time with me or they are never satisfied with whatever I do. They avoid me. I don't have a strong relationship with anyone. I have no close friends either.
I know how it feels when you have an ugly face and everyone treats you differently, when you aren’t good enough, when you want to spend more time with your family. When each day feels like a struggle when you have to put on this mask showing that you are alright and hideaway that vulnerable and bottled up inner self and emotions.
Maybe I am overreacting because so many other people go through worse things than me, but this is how I feel.
Thank you. 🙂
I don't think I am ready to talk to a healthcare professional. I think I need more time.
aw @HelloHi - it sounds like you're experiencing some pretty heavy thoughts there 
...I'm really glad that you've shared it with us. Expressing how you feel can be quite cathartic. Plus, as @Tiny_leaf mentioned, we're always here to listen.
How do you feel after writing some of that down?
It sounds like you're thinking some pretty difficult thoughts - I imagine it must be hard to think things such as "I'm ugly, I hate myself, I'm unattractive, I'm a burden, I'm weak, my grandma doesn't want to talk to me, my parents avoid me, I don't have a good relationship with anyone."
You mention that you may be overreacting, but from what you've described, what you're going through at the moment sounds tough and deserves attention. I'm glad you've reached out to us. I'm curious to know about your professional support network - whether you have one at all or whether you'd be open to getting professional support.
Also, I noticed that you mentioned only negative things about yourself. Can you tell me some positives, or some things that you like about yourself?
Hi @Maddy-RO
Thank you for understanding
My school counsellor talks to me sometimes. I don't think I am ready to reach out to anyone else.
I don't like anything about myself. So I have no positives. Sorry
Hi @HelloHi
There are people here who want to listen, myself included.
It sounds like there's a huge amount going on for you... it doesn't sound like you're overreacting at all.
I'm sorry that people treat you differently because of how you look, that's really not fair...
Do you think it would be more helpful for you to find ways of coping with other people's opinions, or changing how you see your own body?
Have you ever thought about seeing a professional to help you find ways to cope with or change these feelings?
Hi @Tiny_leaf
Thank you for your support.
Sorry I don't really know what will be helpful
My school counsellor does talk to me sometimes.
