...alot of stuff happened in my past they weren't always good, it made me sad about myself for a long time ...
I hated myself i felt bad...and kind of numb.
It got to the point where i thought I couldn't feel anything...not real pain ...or hate..or love...not for myself or for others.
But than something amazing happened there was a boy in my class...he never noticed me we talked once or twice.....i kept looking at him in class i liked his confidence, his witt and personality it made me happy to go to class each day just because he was their..
Till i found out he had a girlfriend it crushed me..and i wound up crying but..it made me realise that ...im not a feelingless monster...i fall in love deeply..but it was a matter of not feeling more a matter of ...finding someone ...almost like im a phone just trying to find the wifi conection which is weird ^.^
So i'm not a monster... even if he unknowingly crushed my fragile heart..i wish him all the best...and i am very happy...
I think from now on...i'lle learn to love myself above others...and one day im going to find someone who loves me for who i am and returns my feelings...
I get scared thinking about comitting to a relationship, letting someone in and trusting them is difficult and there's still a long way to go before i heal my mental problems...but for once i feel hope.
For now though I'm going to learn to love myself all my faults and errors...because i am beautifull inside and out...and everyone is beautifull.
Feel free to comment on your own stories of love...this is all so very new to me ^-^ but maybe i'm not doomed to misery..thankyou very much for reading this.
Hi @HappyCheerios, welcome the Reachout! It sounds like you've had a bit of a journey to get to a place of trying to practise self-love, but it seems like you're on a really positive path. Hopefully sharing your story will be helpful for others who can relate to what you've experienced
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and for sending out positive vibes across RO! I think it's awesome that you have such self awareness and have decided to take the time to love yourself. it sounds like you're in a great place at the moment and I'm so happy for you.
@HappyCheerios Your post is an amazing story of self-discovery, I really enjoyed reading it! Learning to love ones self can be one of the hardest things we do, but it's definitely one of the most important - after all, we're stuck with ourselves forever!
I also wanted to say I totally love your description of being like a phone trying to find a wifi-connection. I'm definitely going to have to use that one in the future!