I'm seeing dad today, I want to be strong for him. I want to be strong for everyone but it feels fake.
Hey @redhead, I am sorry to hear about last night. Are you in hospital or at home?
How are you today?
Glad you're home @redhead, sorry to hear that you're struggling. How are you at the moment, and what's something nice you can do for yourself?
well not really tbh. i dont know how to be ok right now. i was watching some stuff online and hopped on the forums to chill out. i guess thats the best i can do atm.
That's pretty great i reckon @redhead let me know if you want me to hit some people up to play some games with youuuu 🙂
I'm so triggering by stuff my psychiatrist said today. And I just told him everything is great and that I'm fine. I'm not fine. No one cares about me. I should just leave
Hey @redhead I see you've been supporting the entire crew tonight I definitely reckon now is a good time to give yourself some love and self care. Anything in particular you wanted to talk about?
Though I don't know how to explain to anyone what's going on atm.
@redhead I saw the picture of your tatt on the other thread, looks really cool and I'm glad it helped a bit 🙂
Did you want some help to figure out how to express what's going on? Or are you content with not chatting about it right now?
But I'll try to explain some of what going on.
I'm sick of being homeless. The worst thing is I still have my old house I just can't go there without getting triggered and I don't trust myself at night. I have no idea when I'm getting a new place and it's putting strain on. My relationship with my best mate.
Another thing is my ED, I tried making a thread about it but no one responded. This being forced to eat and gain weight sucks.
And my emotional instability. I'm over it. I don't want bpd. I don't want to be sad I don't want to want to hurt myself when things go bad..
And I want to not get suicidal anymore. I've done serious damage the last few times I've tried and it scares me. I should be dead, right now I'm glad I'm not but it's hard sometimes.
I made a thread about eating issues and no one responded as well it made me feel really bad so i can understand where you are coming from. also bpd sucks it is horrible to live with and destroys everything in its path even its host. i am glad you are still here and i do care but i apologize in advance as my replying may be a bit sporadic as i am a little all over the shop at the moment.
