@GentleGiant, your way of thinking is very admirable in my opinion. It feels terrible to have someone so close to you just ripped out of your hands like that, and although I can't exactly relate to that, I can already expect it feels like hell. But you should throw everything in the past now, the previous is already past, now is the present, the future is a gift. If you cut away all that you have been through before, you can still start anew. Be a new and positive person, a person who has a strong outlook on life instead of a person who dwells on a bad past. Instead of trying to fix the past, try to improve your future, smile more, and life will smile right back at you
Thank you for your response and Happy New Years. I had a great day yesterday and I am having an relaxing day today. I am looking forward to this year and just trying to take everything as one step at a time.