I really can’t handle it anymore

Hey @Saltwaterdreamtime, 

I'm sorry to hear that you're having a rough day, did you want to talk about what's happening?

Just really tired 

haven’t been sleeping 

Sorry to hear it @Saltwaterdreamtime - I was reading an article earlier today about how a lot of people are having trouble with their sleep. So much going on at the moment and our poor lizard brains just can't always switch off at night. I have had some very average nights sleep recently too. 

Do you find any of the normal sleep hygiene stuff helpful? So no screens, no caffeine in the afternoon, exercise, darkened room etc.

Or a nap is always good I reckon. 

Sorry to hear you haven't been sleeping - it's an awful feeling 😞 

Haha I like an accidental haiku @Saltwaterdreamtime !!

I hear you on the screens, if I'm honest I still have a bad habit of reading books on my phone at night when I can't sleep. I do use night mode and have the brightness turned down as low as it will go but it's definitely not ideal. 

It's great that you can stay so connected with your mentors, though. It sounds like you have amazingly strong connections with your community. Maybe it could be an idea to try to establish a new habit with your phone, like putting it on the charger in another room or away from your bed once you're finished talking though- I think I need to start doing that again myself. It did help me break the bad habit of checking my phone when I woke up in the middle of the night. 

I’m just tired of having to be on top of things all the bloody time when I’m not feeling so good myself I’m just at my wits end with this all, corona virus can go to hell 

@Saltwaterdreamtime  I really feel for you - it sounds like you have a lot sitting on your shoulders at the moment. Some days, I remind myself that it's okay to do the bare minimum to get through the day. If my kids are warm, fed, and fairly happy, that's enough. 

How is your partner going through all of this? I know you guys have been hit hard by it all. 

Yeah we aren’t travelling so well @Janine-RO she is finding it very very hard tensions are running very high in this house at the moment I copped it big time this morning for doing something that normally isn’t a huge deal 

Hey @Saltwaterdreamtime ,

That sounds tough but I hear you.  When tensions are high the slightest wee thing can trigger someone.  A person could cop it for scratching too loudly soon enough!  

Hope you're doing better today 

@Saltwaterdreamtime 

It doesn't make it easier though.  How are you guys going today?  I know it's a particularly tough time for you currently so just wanted to check-in.  

Yeah pretty shit. My partner has a web interview for a job at 12 so she is
quite stressed tensions are running quite high, particularly because our
internet was playing up earlier but we seem to have it back on now, so I’m
taking the little one out for an hour or two because we can’t be home
during this because one of us will start screaming in the background.
That’s where we’re at right now in this house. It’s good news she has an
interview though.

Hey @Saltwaterdreamtime,

That is good news regarding the interview.  Fingers crossed for you guys .

Good stuff regarding the little one.  Getting out for a walk helps me decompress, even if it's just a wee bit.  

@Saltwaterdreamtime  I hear you. It was the same in my house, to be honest. I think for a lot of us, it was a really emotional weekend. 

Your words about the people in your life are really beautiful,and it sounds like they are really lucky to have you in their lives. 

It sounds like you live in a great spot! Getting out of the house is definitely a huge part of staying mentally healthy through all of this, and one thing I do really love is seeing so many people in our neighbourhood out with their kids. Obviously we can't get too close or chat properly, but it is really nice saying hello from a distance and seeing other humans 🙂

We did go for 2 trips to the footy oval. We went on Sunday, and for some reason all the other people there thought right next to us was a much better place to play than the middle of the oval where there was nobody. Yesterday was a bit better though. The little one has been riding his scooter so went out once of the weekend to ride that (it hurts my brain to watch because he wants to go so fast!!) and he fell off, then yelled at the scooter and told it that it wasn’t nice, cue meltdown. So we went home.

all the things that I thought bought me joy m(only things I had left) don’t help
This morning my partner and I took the little one out puddle jumping and he said “Nans car?” when he saw a car that looked like my partners parents car then when I said no that’s not it he said “uncle ‘s car?” and that was the first time through all this I’ve realised how much it’s affecting him even at that age and potentially the explanation around why he’s been out of control lately

I have nothing left in my life it’s all gone to shit and I hope China takes some responsibility for this