Idk what to call this.

[redhead]

I want to self harm. 

Tbh I'm devastated to hear Ben is leaving (totally not his fault, I'm happy for him and wish him well) 

And I should be happy I finally got accommodation but I'm scared. 

And everything hurts inside right now, I don't know why.

I'm confused.

I'm sad. 

I'm stressed. 

I'm tired (still not sleeping)

I don't know what to do right now 

[Bree-RO]

hey @redhead definitely want to talk a bit more about this, just want to make sure you are safe whilst the community jumps in? Can you stay safe while we chat?

[redhead]

@Bree-RO yeah

[Bree-RO]

@redhead Ben leaving has a few people feeling shakey, it's understandable. Change is hard, especially when mentor's etc leave us. The community is still here though, I am here to listen.


What has you most sad and confused tonight about this - missing his input etc? The accom too?

[redhead]

I don't know. That's why I'm confused

[redhead]

@Bree-RO tonight I just sat in the shower and cried. I don't know how to cope with my life

[Bree-RO]

What sort of things came into your head when you were crying? Sorry to ask heaps of Qs, just trying to see if we can ebb the confusion a bit 

[redhead]

@Bree-ROthat everyone leaves. That I'm gonna fuck up my new accommodation. That my ED sucks. That I want to sh

[Bree-RO]

That sounds really heavy I definitely can understand this has stirred up a lot, you're sounding pretty distressed would you give SCBS a phone call now or KHL?

Sounds like some one on one support will be super helpful, we all want you safe . Edited that one @redhead due to guidelines too, I know it's hard when not feeling so good.

[j95]

hey @redhead sending hugs
can definitely relate to the feelings when people leave