Hi Donni99,
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling negative about yourself, and lacking confidence in your abilities. I understand how it feels when your confidence has taken a knock, those kinds of negative feelings can hold you back from doing as well as you'd like in school and other parts of your life. When I'm feeling really stressed out or upset, I start to notice that I'm not doing very well at having conversations with people - it feelsl like I'm constantly saying the wrong thing in conversations, and i'm doing a bad job at getting along with people. When that happens, I know I need to take some time to take care of myself, and when I'm feeling a bit better, I'll get better at dealing with people again.
You may have already looked around this site and seen some of the info that's available, but I thought these fact sheets might be helpful for you:
All About Confidence
What is Self Talk
On the positive side, you mentioned your school was giving you an award - which is a good sign that they think you did something really well! What was your award for?
blithe