One of my lowest points
It's me again.
So I think I have hit rock bottom again, I've been doing some stupid things with my eating involving bulimic behaviour and restricting my eating as well. I'm also really nervous because tomorrow I have a compulsory talk about body image at school...the school counsellor J will be there. I'm scared because she doesn't know what's wrong with me at the moment but knows there is something going on because I was supposed to see her last week.
I'm scared she will read my body language and figure it out. I'm so petrified.
Oh and also I felt like I was going to faint this morning, I was soooo dizzy and nauseous it wasn't funny,
I don't know what to do...
I really need to speak to someone but the school counsellor hasn't emailed me yet...oh well I don't deserve the help anyway
Re: One of my lowest points
Hey @Pillow - you absolutely do deserve the help! If you can't get in touch with your school counsellor, give Kids Helpline a buzz - 1800 55 1800. This is what they are there for!
How have you been able to cope with the urge for disordered eating in the past? Can you use some of those techniques to get you through? Being nauseous and light-headed is a huge sign that your body is not coping and needs some care.
Are you able to pull your school counsellor aside tomorrow before your presentation and explain what's going on? It will at least relieve some of the pressure for your talk.
Re: One of my lowest points
Hey Pillow...sounds like there is a lot going on - both emotionally and physically. On the one hand you're really worried about your school counsellor figuring out what's been happening for you lately, but then again you've acknowledged that you want/need to talk to someone. I can understand that - but I wonder if it's possible to challenge your mindset and re-train your thoughts to think that it might help make it easier if she does have an idea of what's going on before you have to explain it all.
I know KHL can often have long waiting time, and I was wondering if you'd ever given the Butterfly Foundation a try? You can call:
1800 ED HOPE / 1800 33 4673or log in to a have a online chat with a counsellor firstname.lastname@example.org to speak to a counsellor. 8am to 9pm Monday to Friday (AEST & public holidays excluded). They kinda specialise in body image and eating issues. You coudl give it a try?
Even though you've identified that you're going through one of your lowest points, it's reassuring that at the same time you've been reaching out to us here on the forums. Keep on doing that.
Do let us know how it goes today and also who you decide to talk to..
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