Please help

right now i dont know i literally cant do anything but need to do everything at the same time and i am about to scream and my head wont stop and i just cant deal with all of this it is so frustrating and everything needs to move faster and ugh i just cant take this i am not even sad exactly i am just really really really irritable and like i need to do stuff but i dont know what and ugh i cant i want to stab something and i cant focus and everything is all over the place and my head isnt mine and the evil spirit that i accidentally let in wont leave me alone and ugh i just cant this is all too much

Also @Ben-RO I feel like i am going to explode and everything is just too much and i cant sit still and i dont know what to do. 

@RevzZ I think i will be ok tonight I just need to try and focus but i cant it is complicated and i just want to scream and there is so much in my head i just feel really unsettled and i am trying to keep busy i am listening to music and stuff but idk everything is just really frustrating and i dont know what to do. 

@RevzZ I cant sleep i havent been getting to sleep until 6-7am for the last month and i just cant settle and there is too much going on i am trying to just keep busy but i just want to scream everything is just too much. 

@RevzZ thanks. I honestly dont think anyone can help anymore i just i need to wait this out but i dont know how i even tried a helpline but it didnt help part of me wants to cry and the other part wants to laugh and i just feel really confused. 

@RevzZ I tried kids helpline and lifeline. i have tried suicide call back and headspace as well before none seem to be helpful i want i cant even explain it i just feel really uncomfortable. trying to laugh isnt helping either nothing is. 

@RevzZ well if 0 is bad and super agitated and really uncomfortable then then i am at about a 1.5 

@RevzZ I have had this feeling many times normally nothing works i just have to wait but it can last over a month so idk what to do. 

I know you've said you can't express everything you're feeling at the moment @Eden1717 so perhaps writing just a bit of it might help? Or you could try doing something physically tiring so that sleep might become easier and it'll help keep you occupied? Like punching a pillow or jumping up and down on it (the bed I mean, or you could jump on the pillow I suppose)?

I dont know what the hell is going on with me anymore but this is getting annoying i literally cant stop like i feel pressured to keep doing things and i feel angry and irritable all the time and i cant sleep and everything is bothering me and i want to scream at everyone. and like there is this weird feeling inside me that i dont know how to explain but it makes me want to stab myself over and over again i just cant stop everything in my head i feel like i need to be talking all the time too like i need to be constantly having conversations with people and i am working so so hard to hold everything back but part of me doesnt care and i think i am psychic and also i feel like i was chosen for something but i dont know what and i feel like i have to fix the worlds problems and my head feels like it is going to like explode or something i just dont know what is going on but i am also absolutely sure that my meds cause brain damage and i am not taking them for a lot of other reasons too but i am sure they are going to hurt me and this is going to turn into a huge rant and i just want to scream at everyone because everyone is annoying me and i am really impatient and i just cant wait for things and i cant stop listening to music and it is like i cant focus and i just want to kick stuff but then others times i want to save the world and i feel like i have to like my brain is in over drive and ugh I WANT TO SCREAM and everything is so annoying and sometimes i feel like i have magical powers and then ugh i just i cant even explain it. Also i am really mad at my doctor and everyone tbh i dont even know why but it is like i just hate everything and i want to rip my hair out and sometimes everything is going fast in my head but other times i just feel normal and then i am like well maybe there is nothing wrong and i kind of dont think there is like maybe something is just sending me bad energies and i dont know who or what also there is an evil spirit following me and he wont leave me alone and i am getting really annoyed and i keep wanting to tell it to F-off but then i am like that is rude and i dont really want to be rude but like ugh i am just so annoyed at literally every little thing and honestly i feel like strangling something like i wont but i feel like it and part of me doesnt want to sleep and then also i feel kind of tired but not as tired as i should and and no one listens to me and i screwed everything up with my rabbit so now she doesnt like hugs and only likes to be petted and ugh i just i want to yell at everything and sometimes i get mad at plants because they are annoying but then i feel bad cause i can feel their energy and stuff and i dont want them to get bad energy and like i feel like i cant be open with my mental health workers because they wont believe me about a lot of things and i just feel this huge pressure inside of me and i cant make it stop or get rid of it and i try and exercise but like then there is just more and i am pretty sure someone is trying to hex me and ugh i cant i just i want to scream everything is so annoying and i am sorry this is also so long i feel like i could keep going forever i dont even know what about well i mean there is a lot going on and i just i am holding it in because i dont want them to find out like last time because that was bad and i need to feel more again and someone/thing is trying to get into my head and ugh i cant this is too much. 

@RevzZ I wrote this somewhere else (above post  but it is still how i am feeling and i feel like i cant ugh i dont even know. 

@RevzZ I dont know maybe it just feels like this is something inside me like nothing outside is going to get rid of it. 

@RevzZ I am not doing so well today everything is a mess and i am really agitated and i cant settle and i am scared cause something is going on with me and i can feel it but i dont know how to explain it in a way that people will believe me I just it is scaring me and i dont know how to control it but i am trying it is just really hard and they wont leave me alone i can feel them there always asking always watching some i think are protecting me but some are bad and trying to hurt me. i just dont know what i should do. this is too much.