Sacked
Hey all,
So if anyone remembers that TV club I used to be with, well it turns out they're expanding their product and no longer have room for me so I was let go 
I'm just devasted, I can't control the tears. This club meant so damn much to me and it was all over in under 10 mins. It gave me so much joy even was I totally depressed and now it's gone
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I'm wondering, have you been into the Uni Student Support Squad of late? I'm betting a lot of the people in there will have had similar experiences and might have some really great insights.
I really don't know....Honestly I don't think I enjoy this TV and Film stuff anymore, I hate my UNI course at all now. I liked this particular club because I was given clear instructions, UNI is all "contribute your great ideas" and I'm friggin sick of it.
I seriously don't wanna go through three more years of that, I'm thinking of emailing my lecturer to tell him I'm done
I should have gotten a job and not gone to UNI, I feel like for a idiot for stopping and thinking
Sorry for that explosion, I was in tears at the time cause that position meant so much to me and now it's gone..
I'm in a calmer position now, UNI is tomorrow...not feeling good about. I'm very confused now
@MemphisBelle it's okay to feel a bit explosive at the moment and being a bit confused is fine too. You have just gone through a really tough and painful experience. It is absolutely okay to take some time to work through these feelings and to decide what you want to do next. Remember to keep up the self-care and treat yourself too!
We're here to talk through the loss you've experienced when you're ready :).
I'm geniuely confused about what I want do my entire life now, I've lost interest in the entire TV production course and not sure if I wish to continue with it. I almost feel like nothing exictes me anymore.
I never sent the email I mentioned last night...still contemplating that
@MemphisBelle this is all still pretty fresh, i encourage you to just give yourself a few days, treat yourself a little bit and give yourself a bit more time to process. Maybe TV production is just not your thing now, and that's okay, maybe it's somehting akin to TV production that lets you do the parts that you were drawn to, but skip the bits you just don't like. Or maybe you'll find another great position somewhere and feel great again! Whatever happens and whatever you decide, it will definitely take a bit more time. So I encourage you to give yourself that time.
What do you think?
Today was not good for me at all.
I've had with it my TV production course and have decided to drop it and enrol in different course instead.
I've had a bit of stomach pain since then
Sorry for the late reply 😞
Oh wow, @MemphisBelle, I'm so sorry to hear that.
Do you think the stomach pain is from anxiety, or grief? After all, you did love this course once, even though you've decided it's not for you. I think it'd be pretty natural to be sad and grieve losing that.
I am crushed, I was SOOO excited for this course for at least over a year and to see it be that horrible was a major kick in the nuts.
I don't know what I was expecting but I was surprised when the lecturers didn't try to talk me out of it, I weirdly thought they would try to investigate further but it was all wrapped up in three emails
Just waiting for my requests to go through
In my experience when it comes to uni and vocational courses, they kind of trust that you're an adult and know what's best for you. Whereas at school they have a duty of care to make sure you're okay, in adult education it kind of goes the other way, and they have a duty to respect your privacy and your choices.
Is their reaction making you worry that you made the wrong decision, or are you just disappointed that they weren't supportive? It is a huge decision to have resolved so quickly - are you feeling a little out of breath from it moving so fast?
It was very fast, but I also believed that their response would indicate the impact I had on them and their opinion of me...obviously since it was extremely quick I feel they didn't like me very much.
Honestly, I'm very curious how this new subject goes
Well okay, personal story time: I had to drop a uni subject once (erm, more than once, but anyway) and I felt exactly the same. I emailed my lecturer to let her know, she emailed back to say "all good, catch you later" and that was that. I felt terrible. I'd kind of idolised this lecturer a little bit. I loved her ideas so much and she'd changed my whole perspective on the subject. I was devastated that I hadn't had any impact on her.
Except a few years later, one of my close friends was working with her on his thesis, and mentioned my name to her - and it turned out that not only did she remember me, she'd loved me. She was so sad that I'd dropped out, but hadn't thought it was her business to enquire, and with 200 other students to deal with had never had the time to follow up.
What I'm saying is that their response probably has nothing to do with you as a person or as a student. Your lecturers are just trying to do their job, and they're usually so overworked that sometimes 'respecting your privacy' can come off as 'not giving a crap'.
Now: maybe you're right and you're just another student to them - what would that mean for you? Does it change how valuable you are as a person? If you had connected with them as people, do you think you'd still want to do the course (assuming everything else was the same)?
What's the new subject? I do think it's awesome that you've got your next move all lined up.
I'm doing design instead which is more of how to build the sets and get the stage ready which is really what I prefer doing with my community theatre group. So I'm hoping that goes well.
It's weird, the day I had finally had enough was after a bad experience of having to rent out a ton of expensive equipment, after I filled out the forms to change courses I had this moment of "What if I regret this", I turned around to see the piles of equipment sitting there and then instantly thought "Yeah nah, I don't at all" which was relieving but kinda funny at the same time.
@MemphisBelle glad to hear you've made the call and and acted on your feelings about the course. How're you feeling about it all today? Relieved, uncertain or something else?
@Ben-RO I have to wait 15 days until I hear anything about it, I'm feeling okay at the moment but I think my new medication is in the "funny effect" stage.
I was walking down to the bus stop the other day and had a panic attack out of nowhere. Heart was racing and I kept taking notice of my breathing patterns. Weird
