I never knew I would get in this deep... I always thought "don't worry it's just a few no one will notice," but in truth everyone notices. I thought I could stop doing this to myself but I can't. The judgement from people about my life just pushes me over the edge everytime. I haven't eaten in days because I can't work up the effort to get out of bed and face the world. I barely sleep because the nightmares are just too much to handle. I've used for the last 8 months to calm myself but now I've hurt everyone who's ever cared about me... the pysch at school hates me so where does that leave me?
Re: Self Harm
Welcome to ReachOut.com. I'm sorry to hear that you're going through some tough times but it takes courage to find help. Have you talked to your friends and family about what you're going through? As for the psychologist at your school, why do you feel that they hate you? You could make an appointment with a local psychologist or a counsellor. It really is important to find someone you feel comfortable with sharing and talking to.
I can relate to not being able to get to sleep when you're feeling like crap. Have you tried other activities or strategies to get to sleep? There are some tips here that you may find useful:
- How to get a good night's sleep: http://au.reachout.com/How-to-get-a-good-nights-sleep
There are healthier ways to express yourself and there are some great services that can help and support you. You can talk to the Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, Lifeline on 13 11 14 and the Suicide Callback Service on 1300 659 467. There is also Headspace for a face-to-face chat as well as their online and telephone service, eheadspace.
Hope this helps!
Re: Self Harm
Welcome to ReachOut! It isn’t easy to talk about situations that are going on for you, so well done on doing that, you should really feel proud of yourself. Hearing people’s comment’s doesn’t make the situation any easier, and it can make the situation worse. Also, it is a form of bullying. It’s extremely difficult to block out and ignore what people are saying about you, and it’s difficult to imagine what that must be like for you. You’ve gotten this far, and I believe you should be really proud of yourself for getting this far.
I reckon you should try and speak to a professional, give them a go and see what you may get out of it. There are people out there that want to support people, and they genuinely care about people. It can be difficult initially talking to someone, but from experience, it can be greatly beneficial. I’m thinking if you find some other ways to handle situations that may get a bit too much, like breathing exercises, listening to music, etc, whatever works for you, I think it may assist you.
I’ve attached a few links that I believe you may get something out of them;
Thanks for sharing your post, I look forward reading your next post.
Re: Self Harm
I'm so sorry to hear you're having a rough time. You're not alone, a lot of us have been through some very dark periods. The fact you've come here to RO is an amazing first step to recovery though, it shows how strong you are and that you really want to change how you're feeling
I know it can seem like you have nobody to turn to at times, but there is usually at least 1 friend or adult you can turn to - can you think of anyone at all you can confide in and talk to without judgement?
You can always try Kids Helpline - 1800 15 1800
It sounds like the oxy wasn't prescribed, is that right? In that case you may need some additional support with that. Somazone has some great help too: http://www.somazone.com.au/
Stay strong. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. And stick around to chat, there's usually someone around here to listen
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