Sinking from OCD
Hello everyone .
Back 2008 when I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD . My Pe rents were my savours and took me straight to get help we're I was put on tablets to help me out . Been on tablets since then but now there not helping at all anymore even know my dose had been doubled . My biggest problem is that I'm a qualified mechanic and having OCD in a trade like this is so hard it's so humiliating all of the time because I have to check everything 10-15 times before I'm happy always asking for reassurance always asking questions when I know the answers because I'm scared of doing something wrong . My biggest problem is my brain keeps telling me if I leave something loose it will kill someone or cost the company or my self a lot of money or potentially loose my job . It's getting that bad that I'm starting to hate what I do because of it now I keep putting myself down and thinking I'm no good at what I do . Everyday I nearly come to tears because I'm exhausted not from physical work but from mental work because I spend so much time fighting with my own mind . It's getting to me pretty bad and I have no idea we're to go or what to do . No one at work understands it and my productivity and efficiency is down . And my moods at work are bad because I'm always angry due to being angry at my own brain . I have posted this tonight to get it off my chest because I'm so upset about it all . Thanks
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Hey @Mrmechanic96 that sounds like a very difficult situation. I'm so glad your parents were supportive and got you the help you needed when you were 12.
I can understand how OCD is not helping with your work situation. I would say it's difficult to deal with OCD in any job. Please don't lose heart, this isn't 'you' who's not productive but rather the condition that's making it difficult. Are you currently seeing a therapist or psychologist? There are specific types of therapies available that when combined with the right medication can help you. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) is one such therapy where you look at negative, distressing thoughts and question them objectively. Have you heard of this or tried this? Here's a link to understanding CBT better.
What about your social circle and hobbies - is there anything you like to do for fun? 🙂
@Mrmechanic96 no need to apologise for venting - we're all here to provide support 
is it anxiety that causes you to back out of going to the appointment? Or something else?
Hi @Mrmechanic96,
Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time 😞
We're here to listen so please don't feel bad about venting!
I wanted to check in and see how things are going?
Hi @Mrmechanic96,
That really sucks about the appointment! I'm the same, I rather make appointments online but I guess with technology nowadays although it's super convenient, things can fall through! I agree with @letitgo, maybe giving them a quick call to confirm would solidify your appointment next time 🙂
I think it's really brave of you to make the appointment in the first place!
I think seeing a professional would definitely help your current situation 😞 It sounds like you're going through quite a taxing time.
Sorry to hear about your car! That really sucks too.
Do you have any trusted friends or family members that you feel comfortable to talk to about this?
Please keep us updated!
Hey @Mrmechanic96 well done for booking another appointment! Since today's Thursday, how did it go? 
@letitgo@missep Thursdays appointment went very well I've been put on medication and in two weeks I go back to check on my progress . I'm feeling better now mentally but as people know being put on new medication throws you around about feeling very sick and tired but them side effects should clear in next couple weeks thanks everyone for you support without you guys I'm might of never gone . As I'm expecting my first child in February hopefully I can feel better in myself so my self and my partner can enjoy the loveliness of perant hood . Thanks .
Hi @Mrmechanic96!
Yay! I'm so glad it went well.
It is honestly so great that you had the courage to book another appointment. I hope the side effects disappear soon for you! My experience with medication is that I get a bit of nausea for the first few weeks and then it goes away.
That's so exciting that you're expecting a child in February!
It's so true, it's important to take care of your well-being first, and then you can really enjoy this new exciting experience!
So glad to hear the appointment went well @Mrmechanic96. Keep us posted with how things are going for you!
@missep@letitgoI have booked another appointment for this Thursday with a few problems to discuss I've got my mind set I'm going and am not backing out of it . I have a lot of good people around to talk to but I struggle to bring it up with them . Everyone thinks I'm happy cause of the way I act but deep inside I'm not but shall take a day at a time and hopefully get some paths to choose very soon . Thanks for the replys shall keep you updated .
Hi @Mrmechanic96!
Good on you for booking another appointment!
Good luck for it! Thank you for keeping us updated 🙂
Hopefully having a professional to talk to will make things a bit more comfortable for you and easier to speak about the challenges that you are going through.
@missep@letitgoI have booked another appointment for this Thursday with a few problems to discuss I've got my mind set I'm going and am not backing out of it . I have a lot of good people around to talk to but I struggle to bring it up with them . Everyone thinks I'm happy cause of the way I act but deep inside I'm not but shall take a day at a time and hopefully getsome paths to choose very soon . Thanks for the replys shall Keep you updated .
Sorry to hear about the mix up at the doctor's @Mrmechanic96. Maybe if you make an online appointment next time, you could call them to confirm?
I know that's an extra thing for you to have to do, so I understand if it seems a bit daunting.
We'll support you the whole way through!
Sounds like some self-care might be helpful for you at the moment, what do you think?
It's good that you're able to recognise that you need help @Mrmechanic96. Could you use your social circle to help you with getting to the GP appointment, e.g. asking someone to go with you, or at least drive you there so it'd be harder for you to back out?
