Hello @Pleasehelp06 , it sounds like you have been going through a challenging time lately, so it is great that you are reaching out for support. It sounds like you are quite overwhelmed and uncertain about what to do. I am sorry to hear that you have been experiencing emotional and physical pain as a result.
Have you been able to get any professional support around this? You might find talking to a counsellor about these feelings and your concerns to be helpful as they can support you through this. Kids Helpline is a free service that offers confidential counselling to those who are going through a hard time. You can call them up to talk to a counsellor on 1800 55 1800 or they have webchat options if that suits you better 
Hope this helps!
@Sophia-RO Thanks, I see a case worker but feel too embarrassed to bring this up 
i think I might have aged out of kids Helpline, though I have called before - I’m 23.
@A_Friend Thank you it is tough but I blame myself and my lack of self control for it. I have downloaded the I am sober app and will definitely give that a go.
Hey @Pleasehelp06 ,
It sounds like a really tricky situation - just so you know, Kids Helpline is available for young people until you're 25 so you're still fine to call them if you like 
They also offer webchat if you'd be more comfortable with that, I can totally get why it might feel embarrassing to chat with your case worker or someone face to face about how you're feeling.
Another person who might be able to give you another perspective is a GP, do you think you'd be comfortable having a chat with them?
