Dude(tte), I think is cool that you let it out. Sometimes is more than necessary, and I telling you this as someone whose account will soon be deleted because went looking for help in a strictly Australian platform even when I knew I wasn't allowed. Put it to words felt somewhat liberating for me and I hope writing it helped you too.
I'm sorry you're dealing with homophobic parents and that you feel you have few friends.I regards to your parents I'm sorry I can't offer you advice since I don't know the whole picture, but if you're feeling that you don't show enough appreciation to your friend then you could write them a letter expressing how much the support means to you. Is easier to put your thoughts into order and not to divert/get sidetracked from doing it. And on top of all is Christmas season! so you don't have to worry about it coming out the blue since this kind of thing is common in this season.
About your self-image issues: I would bet the only two cents I have in my pocket and the other two in my friend pocket that you look perfectly fine!. But maybe start practicing a sport may be a good idea. Not so much because the losing weight thing, but because it can help you feel more in control of your body + it gives the chance to make new friends based on a common experience + (at least in my case) it can help you take your mind from this stressing things. Though, being honest joining any club/activities of any class of your interest may help you a bit. My only advice would be to look for a "self-improvement" oriented group rather than a "competition-based" group to avoid add further stress.
Hang in there. I hope everything gets better for you 
I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling, it sounds like there is a lot going on for you right now. What did you think of some of the suggestions from other users?
I hope you are doing well today
Thank you for confirming your safety yesterday.
Hey, @Zeldasmile, I really hope you're feeling a little better today. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with that makes it hard to stay afloat. Have you practiced any self-care techniques to help yourself long-term? I see sports have already been recommended, but something like practicing a hobby or reading a book works just as well for me. Also, please don't give up on the idea of a counsellor at school. Even though there's not much time left for the school year, he/she could probably link you in to some other support too.
You matter and we're thinking of you. Please take care of yourself
Hey @Zeldasmile,
I'm not sure we've spoken before, so hi
Well done on making this post, it can be such a big step to reach out when we're not feeling great. It sounds like there's a whole host of things leading to you feeling pretty overwhelmed at the moment.
It can be so tough when we don't feel like there's a place we can be ourselves, or have to hide who we are, I've definitely been there. Do you like any sports? When I was struggling with making likeminded friends, I joined a soccer team and was lucky to meet such a wide array of people, many of which are LGBTQI+. For me, joining this team enabled me to comfortably be who I am, make a whole bunch of friends and get fitter. Is that something you'd be interested in doing?
As some of the others mentioned, would you be able to access Headspace again or maybe contact KHL? Sometimes it really helps to have some professional support.
Please keep us updated on how you're going, @Zeldasmile!
there is lots going on in this post, do you want to pick something which stands out the most for you?I wanted to say that I also live in a smaller country town, and I am seeing a bit of a shift towards LGBTQIA+ community where I am, in some circles things haven't changed, but in others, things are definitely changing.
I also wanted to tough on self-care, you mentioned how you don't get the point of it, and I wanted to share that self-care is literally stuff to keep you well, so getting out of bed, feeding your body etc all the things our body and mind need to be healthy
