TW: Grief, Depression, Anxiety, Self Harm & Suicide

[Bananatime04]

Oh maybe I’m asexual.. is that bad?

I hope the vet goes well.

[Tiny_leaf]

@Bananatime04 no, there's nothing wrong with it at all!

It's just like being straight or gay or anything else.

[Bananatime04]

I don’t want to be asexual I don’t want to be different I hate myself
I’m stupid and ugly and fat and horrible and always scared and dumb and worthless

People will judge me and I don’t want to be judged I hate myself

[Tiny_leaf]

You don't know for sure @Bananatime04 

Anyway, we have some asexual people on the forums who I think are pretty cool.

And I think you're pretty cool too, whatever you turn out to be.

[Bananatime04]

But.. I don’t want to I’m ashamed of myself I’m horrible and a disappointment

My mum would never accept this. I’m not, I don’t want to be, I can’t

[Bananatime04]

Hey @Andrea-RO are you part of the LGBTQ+ community?

[Bananatime04]

@Tiny_leaf what keeps you safe?

[Tiny_leaf]

@Bananatime04 being on here, because I meet other people like me. 

And my kitties.

Sometimes I do have to ask dad to take me to emergency room though.

You don't have to apply any label to yourself if you don't want it.

The point is though that the decision about wether or not you have sex is up to you. 

And there's nothing wrong with saying "yes" or "no" or "later". And there's nothing wrong with changing your mind.

What's most important is that you feel comfortable and safe.

[Bananatime04]

I just contacted kids helpline so I could have some help keeping myself safe right now and she just told me, no your new counsellor is here tomorrow so it’s best you wait. Well no Karen what if the fuck I’m not here tomorrow!!!! Ugh I am so angry and lonely and my thoughts are bad and I don’t know what to do 😣
I hate her
Why did Macy have to leave

[Andrea-RO]

Hey @Bananatime04,

I'm really really sorry that kids helpline said that, it's so unfair that that happened to you have you ever tried calling one of the other helplines before? There's even one for queer people that I know of called Qlife, which might be good to chat about how you're feeling about asexuality