Hey I’m so sorry that I haven’t been here guys 
honestly.. I can’t lie, I have been experiencing suicidal thoughts and stepped away from the forums for a while. I am safe at the moment but sorry if I take another break. It’s not because I’m not safe, it’s because I don’t want to post the wrong things as my thought patterns get so negative when I feel like this. I’m feeling ok right now but not the best. I am safe tho
That’s okay @Bananatime04, I know I’ve had a bit of a break lately.
Glad to hear that you’re safe right now.
Do you want to talk about anything? It can be anything at all. You can choose if you want. 
Thanks @xXLexi_Lou122Xx 
I don’t really know what to talk about.. I’ve kinda started failing everything and have a lot on my mind. It’s really effecting how I make decisions now. I’m sorry
Hi @Bananatime04,
I moved these posts to a new thread so that our community could easily find your latest post, including the update that you have been taking some time away from the forum. There are a lot of members here who care a lot about you that would really want to read this update I also wanted to make sure that the really big feelings you've mentioned, including thoughts of suicide, are given the space to be heard and for you to receive support from our community who have been where you are right now
It sounds like it has been a difficult week, and that you have been working hard to keep safe when you have been having some really heavy thoughts and feelings. The fact that you are talking to us from a safe place about how you are feeling is a really courageous step, and shows so much resilience. When you were feeling these heavy feelings over the weekend, and having negative thoughts, was there anything that helped you to get through that moment and back to a safe place?
Hi again @Bananatime04. I'm so sorry that you're experiencing suicidal thoughts and are going through a really tough time. I'm glad that you're safe though.
It's okay if you need to step away from the forums. You need to do what's best for yourself. I haven't been as active as I'd like to because I've been pretty exhausted between interviews, caring and health stuff, so I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in a while. But I'm here if you need support or some kind of distraction.
It's good to hear from you again @Bananatime04. You don't have to apologise for your time off. We understand your reasons and only you can decide what's best for you.
I'm glad that you've worked up the courage to confide in your counsellor and other people, even if their support wasn't always helpful.
I'm sorry that you've been failing school. Are there any support services at your school? If you provide medical evidence, you might be able to get extensions on assignments or rest breaks during exams. They might ask for a diagnosis, but your doctor/psychologist can write that it is a provisional diagnosis. My psychologist filled out a form for me so that I could get rest breaks during exams, which really helped me.
Good luck with the psychiatrist! Hopefully, they can help.
I think you should be proud of yourself for not self-harming in weeks. I'm proud of you too. I hope that you can keep it up! I'm so glad you're safe.
