@skyfireinferno99Yeah, Headspace are awesome, but unfortunately they're sometimes a bit limited in the amount of support they can give 
Would you feel up to contacting some clinics and asking if they're able to accommodate your financial situation? I know I get a slightly cheaper rate with my psych who works in private practice because I have a Healthcare Card from Centrelink, for example 
The process to find a new support can be really tiring, you're doing well 
Hey @skyfireinferno99, i'm sorry to hear that you've had such a rocky road with your supports I can hear how draining and frustrating it is for you, and it's really understandable that you feel this way. It takes so much bravery and strength to open up at any time, and even more to do so multiple times
You mentioned that you've tried seeing some new psychs since your last one had to leave, but that they didn't work out for you, were they just not the right fit? Would it be worth mentioning to a new psych your history, and how it's made you a bit wary of opening up to professionals? that way you can have a honest chat about a possible working relationship going forward? I understand though that it's really easier said than done
That makes sense @skyfireinferno99, having someone invalidate your feelings and experiences when you've opened up to them is such an awful feeling. It really does make it hard to build trust.
It's not always easy to find the right fit as you've found, it can unfortunately take time. You deserve the help though and you deserve the right person to listen to you What do you think you can do in the meantime until you find someone new? Is there anything that usually helps you deal with the pain you've been experiencing?
Nothing really helps with pain, but working is a distraction for me. I have been working long hours these days, but I feel pretty burnt out. I haven't had a break in two years now. I love my job and I have to do everything to keep at it. I can't let my situation affect my work. This is something that keeps me going. The hard part is to deal with the pain when I am not working.
I feel like if I try finding someone again, I'll get abandoned again. Everytime I open up to someone about my struggles, they end up leaving me
I hear you @skyfireinferno99, it's not easy the experience you've had.
I'm glad to hear your job is something that helps keep you going, even if it's draining you a bit right now. For the non-working hours would you want to check out our 100001 coping strategies and distractions thread? it's got lots of good ideas for redirecting thoughts away from tough feelings and keeping occupied with something more positive
