Hello @wolvesrunfree. I noticed it is the first time that we have met online 
I have just been reading over your thread and I just wanted to say that you have been through so much. You have been so brave in continuously seeking support when you need it. I am sorry that you have been treated poorly by other people and services. It sounds like a truly horrible and frightening experience to have to endure. Despite all of what you have been through, it is really amazing to see you still sharing your story and reaching out for support. It makes you such an admirable, resilient and strong person 
Safety planning can be really valuable as it aims to help you when you are having thoughts of suicide. You can find out more about safety planning here. There is even an app you can use which is listed in the article.
It is great that you have a psychologist and the Lifeline text service as your supports. Other services have web chat which can be really helpful, such as eHeadspace and Kids Helpline. These services could be apart of your safety plan for when you are feeling suicidal. What do you think?
Yeah I think it would be a good idea to have them apart of my safety plan, thank you!
