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Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

I have absolutely no motivation to do anything anymore, I'm doing the bare minimum in all my classes. I've stopped taking photos with my camera which I  used to do almost everyday. I feel like I'm almost not good enough for myself or anyone else, like I'm letting myself down.

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

I can't tell if I'm distancing and isolating myself from others not asking them to do stuff or nobody wants to hang out/be around me.

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

Hi @Pasta , I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a tough time recently. Smiley Sad Please know that we're all here to support you and listen to whatever you have to say. We're happy that you have the courage to speak up about your own problems and concerns and are seeking advice and help! 

 

If you feel like you're distancing yourself from others or that nobody wants to hang out with you, it may be best to openly communicate these thoughts to your friends and family to give yourself some relief. I know it sounds hard to do but I know that your friends would be supportive and understanding of the things you're feeling and concerned about. You also previously mentioned that you talked to KHL and that they recommended you talk to someone. Did you take some time to talk to a specialist or professional about the problems or concerns that you're going through? If not, are you planning to seek advice from a professional in the near future? A professional would be able to cater specifically to the needs and concerns you have so that you don't have to go through the feelings and problems you've experienced recently.

 

You also mentioned that you felt like you were having a panic attack too — are you feeling okay now? Were you on the bus going home, or were you going out somewhere else? It may help to look at this article here to understand more about how to cope with potential panic attacks. I hope you are feeling better now and are safe! Cat Happy Please do keep us updated on how you are and feel free to express how you are feeling! Sending you positive vibes and happy thoughts! Heart

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

@drpenguin I've got an appointment with a gp in a couple weeks, I don't know how I feel about this all. I was catching the bus home and I'm feeling better from that situation but others are currently keeping me down, I feel so exhausted from everything I guess.

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

There is a presence of uncertainty and emptiness within me. I wish I could have done things differently, maybe this all wouldn't be happening right now. I can't help but think this is all my fault, I feel so alone.

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

Hi @Pasta , it's good to hear that you'll be visiting a gp in the future! Although it may seem scary or daunting, someone who can fully understand what you're going through will definitely help you cope with most of the negative things you're experiencing. Are you planning to visit the gp alone? Maybe going there together with someone you trust may help encourage you to go through with it. They don't have to go see the gp together with you, but just accompany you on the way there. Smiley Happy I wish you the best with seeing your new gp!

 

The future is always uncertain and I personally know that it can be very nerve wracking. We also can't change what happened in the past, and there are always things that we regret or feel like we could have done differently. I have so many things that I wish I could have done differently, but what's done is done. The best that we can do is to learn what we could have done better, and make sure things happen differently in the future. It's tough feeling that things may be your own fault, but please know there are also so many other things that could have also contributed towards the ways things happened in the past. And please know that you're not alone, you also have us here to talk to about anything! Smiley Very Happy

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

@drpenguin I don't have my driver's licence yet so my mum will be taking me there. I've never seen anyone before so all this is new to me and a bit overwhelming.

 

I know and understand I can't change the past but I feel like everything could've been a lot better than what it is now. I'm trying to move forward and forget but I feel I will loose apart of me and others. I really just wish I had someone to rely on, someone I could entrust and give everything to.

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

Hey @Pasta 

 

I understand how nervous you might be feeling if you've never had to see a GP before, it can be hard if you don't know what to expect. It's great that you'll have your mum's support though. Plus, most GPs are really good and professional, and should be able to handle your issue sensitively. It's super great that you're getting the support you need. The first few steps are often the hardest HeartHeart

 

It's hard sometimes to move forward, and focus on the future. It can be very easy for us to fall into the pattern of overthinking or overplaying the past, which can be really unhelpful for us. A professional might be able to help you break that cycle, and focus more positively and more on the future. Things can get better. 

 

Let us know how your GP appointment goes. Wishing you all the best with it. Heart

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

Hey @Pasta , I'm glad to hear that your mum is supporting you in going to visit the gp! Doing something for the first time, especially seeing a gp and opening up yourself to them, definitely is hard and can be overwhelming since you have no idea how it will turn out. But like TOM-RO said, the GP will be professional and helpful for you concerning the things that you are going through. 

 

I'm glad that you're also trying to move forward, and I understand that you're worried that you'll lose a part of yourself or others in the process. But maybe you can view it as change for the betterment of your own well-being. You're brave and strong for trying to move forward and focus on your future Heart. And by doing that I know that you will be able to find someone who you can rely on and trust with everything soon! Smiley Very Happy

 

Please do keep us updated on how you are! Sending positive vibes your way! Heart

Re: Think I might be suffering from borderline personality disorder

I'm uncertain about my future, the future. I really am trying to view it as a positive thing moving on but I can't rid that feeling, the feelings I had, still have. She made me feel wanted in this world of disaster, like I belonged somewhere and now I'm lost in my world; my thoughts, my head, my feelings.