Im a 54 year old woman , I was diagnosed with BPD last year , Diagnosed Bipolar 8 years ago. My eldest son passed away in Novemeber last year . December I found out my husband has Aspergers... feeling lonely and miserbale I reached out and decided to have an affair, hubs has no sex drive Anyway I decided to end the affiar yesterday before it became physical .
I live in a state of constant chaos ,cant make decisions , and make one mess after another , hubs cant handle money neither can I, my intelligence is above average, I cant find work , I cant make friends, I feel as if im going mad 90% of the time, my pshychologist advised me to go bacck onto mood stabilizers , im feeling a bit more rational which is probably why I ended the affair , I coulndt come to grips with the "wrongness" of it , im brutally honest with myself and others.
My son was 32, drug overdose , my younger son is 29 headed the same way .... I just cant anymore .. i want to fix me so badly now im missing the bloke I had a "thing" with ...
Re: Totally Lost
Hi @Shilly welcome to the ReachOut forums!
The support ReachOut offers is more appropriate for 12-25 year olds, and so our support may not be too helpful. The Beyond Blue website has forums similar to ReachOut but more appopriate for someone in your age group. Is that something you might like to check out? If so please follow this link- https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums
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