Seriously impressed - again - with your strength getting through hard times @loves netball, those positives are great. We're here to help you plan the weekend and debrief afterwards 
You've done a fantastic job turning those negatives to positives @lokifish! Nobody is beyond help and with the right support you CAN recover. I wish there was something I could say that would make it better, I'm thinking of you
@lokifish I love and totally agree with all those positives and I'm so proud of you for continuing to do your best to get through this, even though it seems really tough. We all care about you and believe in you so much!
Neg: woke up with nightmares, thinking spirits were trying to kill me
Pos: called SCBS, then tried to go back sleep with big ted, but didn't, so watched netball
Neg: started feeling really scared about being in my room
Pos: went and made food because I have work tonight
Neg: started shaking and going hysterical for a couple of hours
Pos: tried STOP skill, hugging big ted, putty; came on RO (not sure if that's a positive 
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Neg: got too scared to go in my room; I couldn't stop shaking and wanted to do something very unsafe
Pos: finally got through to the same person at SBCS again, had a shower (and changed my clothes like 3 times 
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@Ben-RO I want to take big ted with me to my appointment but it might look a little weird carrying a giant teddy
