Update
Hi again just giving an update on my last post, i was doing really good for a period of time but things have rapidly slipped downwards. Since my relationships with friends and family have pretty much disintegrated lately i've been going out trying to find new people but it's been no success mainly due to no one really understanding why i'm agender and that i'm a lot happier than say compared to my original identity as a boy, the attempts beat me up badly mentally and became really depressed. The last time i talked to my psychiatrist (a while back) regarding my depression he recommended me to start with anti-depressants if they worked he would let me continue with em depending on my mood, if they didn't work the only other solution was to go to a local mental health inpatient unit for a couple to few weeks. I honestly don't want to go on anti-depressants or anything similar at all whether it's good or bad due to my past overdosing problem which left me with a traumatic effect where everytime i see pills/drugs from chemists i get a sick sometimes nauseating feeling, and i too don't want to stay in a mental health unit either. Ever since i told my old psychiatrist i was suicidal i've been getting calls from mental health hotlines pretty much everyday which sometimes i pick up but most of the time i refuse to answer, i'm really scared that out of nowhere during my day i could have a mental health team that will come to my place and escort me possibly to that mental health unit cause i mostly don't pick up the helpline calls.
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Just wanted to jump on here, you have had a rough go by the sounds of things and have tried a few different things. I am super sorry to hear how people have reacted to you being agender that sucks big time, I know what it is like to have people close to you have a negative interaction with your gender. When I was working out I was non-binary my partner at the time made it all about her and said if I was non-binary that impacted her identity as lesbian. Was deffs not the response I was hoping for. I just thought I would check in and see how you were going today.
@Claire-RO Sorry for the late reply everything's ok now with me 🙂
Thanks for giving us an update to your situation and I'm really sorry to hear that right now things are tough for you again. I know that you're probably getting similar questions like this a lot, but I just want to check in with how you're doing tonight, and whether you're feeling suicidal right now?
It sounds like that you've been trying really hard to connect to other people but that's been hard since it feels like other people don't understand your gender and how it makes you happier. I'm wondering in a situation like that, maybe it would be helpful to try and connect to other agender people in spaces like online forums? I don't know if that's something you've ever tried before.
I can really understand why you might not want to go on the medications again, if you've had bad reactions to them the last time, and also why you wouldn't want to go to the hospital. You've also mentioned that you haven't been picking up the calls from the mental health team lately - is there anyone right now that you've been talking to about what's been going on, or someone that you can talk to when things are bad?
@TOM-RO I'm doing ok just doing a bit of reading, i don't have friends nor family to reach out to
Hi @Agenderandproudofit, thanks for letting me know. And it must be really hard to have to deal with these feelings all the time, and not be able to talk to your friend or family about any of it. I'm glad that you were able to reach out to us on here tonight, and I hope that you can keep us updated on what's going on. I'm sure that lot of us here have also felt similarly in the past, so I'm going to open this up to the rest of the community to respond to, as well.
Reach Out doesn't just have to be place to talk about difficult things with, but it can be a really nice place to get to know other people and make some friends, too. For example, maybe once you're doing with your reading you could let us know about it in our books thread and tell us what you think? 
