I've been having really bad days the last few days. I've been self harming every chance I get and purging up my food after every meal. I've been feeling more and more depressed and alone like no one cares. I've been starting to think of ending my life...although I know I won't act on the thoughts it's a bit scary that I'm having them.
Anyways this is a short post but I think you sort of get the idea of it so yeah. Aha x
Sounds like you've had a realy rough string of days there. I don't know if it helps at all but we all have strings of bad days from time to time. I had a few last week. It's funny how you never get just one bad day, huh? It's always a bunch of 'em.
When I feel like some bad days are coming, I like to make sure I have some things planned that will cheer me up, like going to the movies, or playing some video games.
Everyone — and I mean EVERYONE — has thoughts at some point about ending their life. Sometimes it's out of curiosity, sometimes it's due to a mental health issue, and sometimes it's because things aren't going too great.
There's nothing wrong with having thoughts about it — they're only thoughts. That you state "I won't act on the thoughts" shows that you know that and that you know it's not a real option. It's if you start acting on them that you should be worried.
Hey, with all the self-harming and purging (which itself can also be a kind of self-harm), you could use some help to reduce that behaviour. Are you regularly seeing a counsellor or psychologist at all?