thanks guys
my own worries are making me so sick 😞 like i feel like im going to throw up because of everything
Do you feel like tonight it would be best to talk about these specific worries @scared01 ? Or stay clear of them? They sound like they are overwhelming you a bit. 😞 I am here for you ❤️
i dont even know where to start
Take your time @scared01 . We can sort through them together. What is the main thing ticking over at the moment?
and trying to arrange an appointment with the new psychiatrist but i cant make myself go
I am unsure about the guidelines specific to ED's - I know it can be tough to experience that though 😞
Have you arranged the actual appointment? Perhaps you could have someone close to you go with you, or nudge and encourage you to go? I know just the other week when I was supposed to go to my GP appointment and didn't want to go, my boyfriend made me because he knew they were there to help me..and if I didn't go then I wasn't helping myself. It's a hard truth 😞 How do you feel about that?
I'm glad you are reaching out about it tonight. @scared01
no 😞 havent even made the appointment, i cant even get that far. they rung me up cause we sent the refferral and then once the psychiatrist has a spot available she gets reception to ring but i missed the call and i didnt even ring back. ive got the number but i cant bring myself to do it. im kind of sick of being pumped full of medications to kepe myself stable
Oh @scared01 - I am sorry! It seems you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself to do the right thing, but you are taking the right steps. Even though you haven't made the phone call yet, it doesn't matter. You know what you need to do and when the time feels right, you can make that call. It is a totally different situation - but I avoided making a phone call today to a school I am supposed to be working at soon because I am so anxious about doing shifts there. So I have given myself some slack - it is okay to be anxious and not want to do these things. And it can feel even more overwhelming when we put this pressure on ourselves.
Could you perhaps get someone to make the call for you?
Tomorrow I am making a goal to ring the school. I don't know if I will do it because I am very nervous, but I will try. Maybe you can too?
ive been trying every day. i get the number on phone and i can never ring. i see my nurse in about 2 weeks maybe she could help with that.
i get what you mean about the pressure we put on ourselves. us humans can be quite silly sometimes @mspaceK
I think going to your appointment is important @scared01 . And getting the courage to ring can be so difficult. I am wondering if you could get yourself to go into the venue to make the appointment. Would that be a possibility?
since its the school holidays there are to many people that i know in the area which would mean heaps of questions that i cant deal with. alot of my mh is a secret i guess you could say
Oh yes - @scared01 - I totally get that. I get scared going to my local headspace after school hours because I work with children and teenagers and get worried that there will be students I have taught there and then that will spark interest and questions about why I am there...and when it comes to therapy groups..well, how the heck do I explain why i am there? It is my safe place which I have been going to for years. Anyhoo - getting back to you, that is totally understandable that you keep your MH stuff a secret. Only certain people know about my MH issues. I like to keep it on the down low. ...so going there is out then! What about someone close to you? Is there anyone who could make the phone call for you?
yep thats the same for me, the people that know about my mh basically arent supportive anyway so makes it really hard. i literally have to do it all on my own.
my nurse is good though and i think she may be able to help me
It really sucks to feel like you are all alone @scared01 . There are times when I feel like I am dealing with everything all on my own and it is really scary. I know it isn't true though - and when you said that you have your nurse and that your nurse might be able to help you - that is amazing and proof that there are people out there who can help us. We, of course - take the full front of everything we are dealing with and yes, we do manage it on our own, which is hard and is also making us stronger people..it isn't fair but we're fighting it, hey? Can you contact your nurse? When are you seeing her next?
i see her in uh pretty sure its 2 weeks now so i can ask her then and she will probabaly ring in my appointment time to check my avaliability and things
That is such a great step @scared01 and a really good plan of action. It may not be immediate but you're doing a great job.
How are you feeling at the moment?
That's okay @scared01 . Would you like to work on some distraction activities to help direct your attention to something more helpful? What are you doing right now?
what are you doing atm?
Oh sorry for the delay @scared01 . I am actually reading the end of a book and very engrossed!
That sounds good 🙂 what are your plans tomorrow?
im getting kinda tired so i might even try for an early bed.
sounds like a good book!
im watching a movie with siblings tomorrow and then by the looks of it not to much more, what about you
An early night might be good then @scared01 🙂
It is a good book - I am so close now.
Tomorrow I might have work only if I get called in, otherwise during the day I am staying home and cleaning more of my room (sorting through clothes) and then in the evening I am going to the cinemas with friends.
It should be @scared01 . I am a little anxious about being called in to work but I won't know until it happens. It will be a new experience for me in my new job (if I get called in). Part of me is excited about the prospect though. I have worked my whole degree for this moment. New things are always scary but I just keep having to remind myself that I can do it. and just see what happens!
Are you heading to bed real soon?
