is there anyone around to talk to?
im just abit stressed and upset over some things and im not coping to well with it. mostly the pressures that i cant escape from. im not really sure what to do
that's all good, do you think talking about it would help, or did you want to brainstorm self care strategies?
That's really good that you've bee doing some self-care @scared01,
What sort of stuff did you want to talk about?
Oh sorry @scared01! Looks like the post didn't come up when I refreshed.
That does sound like a super difficult situation, particularly when it comes from the people you would want to be the most understanding. It also sounds like you're struggling with the fact that your mum doesn't seem to prioritise your social life which can sometimes feel really unfair (especially when it has happened so last minute like in this case!).
What has been your mum's reaction to you telling her that you'd appreciate a bit more forewarning before asking you to do her a favour? Is there any chance you would be able to decline, or at least set up a scenario in which you feel comfortable declining such requests in the future?
it is rather difficult. i had some appointments tomorrow but i now have to cancel. i knew it was hard to make appts in the holidays anyway so shouldnt have expected to be able to go. unfortunatly my mother knows i dont have a social life outside of family so thinks she can dump on me anytime.
i can say no sometimes, but its more when ive had abit of forewarning so she can arranage other alternatives to me.
How are you feeling today? I can imagine that cancelling appointments would have been really challenging, particularly when you have been working really hard to stay on top of your health. Thinking of you today and hoping you get some "me time" in between watching the kids today
im not coping well at all today. my depression is really coming out, struggles with family today that make me question alot of things, and ive had an hrs sleep due to nightmares. really bad ones so doesnt seem to be a good mix for me today.
kids go back tuesday but its not making it easier on me, my roles have been increased again.
at the moment i couldnt care less about me, starting to wish i wasnt here at all
stomachaches are no fun at all. hope you feel better soon! with winter coming theres lots of bugs around like gastro as well. keep up your fluids as much as possible.
I thought I remembered that you were the one who had horses! I was right 🙂 @scared01 .
Honestly last night was shit. I had severe stomach pains all night and was going to the toilet several times. I was just at work this morning but i had to leave early because I started to feel sick again and I'm right back on the toilet. It's not fun.
I can't imagine what it would be like to have asthma on top of that 😞
Good luck with the house work. I was going to do more organising in my room but i think I'm just going to rest because i think I'm going to be up and down to the toilet again (which im on now 😞 ) i hate this 😞 i might have to cancel my workshift for tomorrow if this keeps up. I wouldn't mind except for the fact that i just had a week off and i need to work to earn money 😞 gosh i wish i didn't feel so miserable today tbh.
it can get pretty scary cant it!
im lucky that my asthma is only more mild and usually only triggerred by allergies but if im hyperventiliating it doesnt help anything.
mm its not looking to busy but in saying that ive probably just jinxed myself. ive got housework to do today and horses but not sure what else to do
what about you?
Those sound like good strategies @scared01 . I don't have asthma but I also get a racing heart and struggle to breathe. It's terrifying. 😞 I do plan on going to bed very soon. I might read my book for a bit and then drift off hopefully.
Have you got much on this weekend?
i tend to put some music on through my earphones so its not as quiet (but doesnt disturb anyone) and then i play a game on my phone for a while till i feel abit better. i get really bad heart palpatations and have asthma so it can be pretty scary when i get into that much of a panic i cant breathe and my heart goes funny.
im a night owl so im always in bed late ive been up for almsot 48hrs (if you dont include the one hrs sleep) so im not surprised im struggling to be awake despite the fear.
i really hate the nightmares esp with the hallucinations! im sorry you experience them too. bloody awful things
That's really tough @scared01 . I hope you are able to get some better sleep tonight without the nightmares 😞 I know from personal experience how scary and exhausting they can make you feel. Especially the hallucinations 😞 that's okay if you disappear. i'll know. I'm hoping to get some good sleep tonight too. I've been going to bed ridiculously late recently in order to tire myself out but it hasn't been helpful. I've just been tired and miserable all day and irritated cause of lack of sleep. I get nightmares as well and sometimes wake up seeing things 😞 i hate it. One thing I try and focus on is my breathing and then a distracting activity like reading or a logic puzzle or colouring in. Do you have any coping strategies in those really hard moments?
so if i stop repsonding thats probably where ive gone!
@scared01 Well that does actually sound like a pretty good plan then. 🙂
How are you feeling tonight by the way? What have you been up to?
ive had a pretty good chat with both my nurse and my gp but i think i might have another one with them at my next appointment. they know i become even more unstable when im off my medications but my current ones arent working that well, thats why shes sending me for a second opinion and doesnt want me off them just yet until we find out what the psychiatrist thinks
