loosing the will to go on

[N1ghtW1ng]

@scared01 that sounds like a good plan I just want to go to bed, to be honest.

Deciding to see someone is a big choice, and it's great that you've made that step. I understand what it feels like to say you'll do something then avoid it, but that doesn't make you a disappointment or a failure. Seeing a therapist is not an easy thing. As hard as it is to make the appointment, it can be even harder to go. It makes perfect sense that you don't want to be exhausted when you go and there is nothing wrong with that.

What are you having for dinner?

[Bree-RO]

Great support @N1ghtW1ng <3

@scared01 I agree with @N1ghtW1ng it's a process, we all think you're doing well. Super well. I would also like to know what is for dinner?

[scared01]

i just want to go to bed too @N1ghtW1ng @Bree-RO

im exhausted and i gotta be up early to do it all again

its not jsut the appointments. im a failure at everything

a waste of space

a waste of air

im just so tired. i have no energy.

[N1ghtW1ng]

@scared01 I'm off to bed now, I hope you get some sleep tonight

I understand not having any energy. It can be really hard to keep going when it feels like there's nothing but that's what makes you strong. I believe in you.

[scared01]

im heading to bed myself too @N1ghtW1ng

hopefully ill get to sleep

[honky]

Hi @scared01, I just wanted to drop in and say I totally agree with @N1ghtW1ng. Your courage to continue is what counts, so you're definitely not a failure

I hope you get some sleep tonight, have a goodnight

[scared01]

Thanks @honky 

I hope u sleep well too ❤

[scared01]

I want my nightmares to stop @Bree-RO
I dont know how to make them stop
I dont want to be able to feel my dream
Thats not normal

[Bree-RO]

What do you feel isn't normal? @scared01

Definitely understand wanting the nightmares to stop.. Bed time is supposed to be restful, have you brought up the nightmares with the mental health professionals?

[scared01]

@Bree-RO 

I get people have dreams  nightmares and flashbacks. But i feel everything esp the sa ones. I feel him touching me every where and going in 

It really distresses me

I havent quite bring it up at a session yet