@Andrea-RO i never got through to anyone.
i feel terrible tonight i am trying so so hard but i made the mistake of looking in the stupid mirror and now i feel like crap and feel like i need to be out of my body. i cant stand this i hate it so much i literally feel sick.
It's sounds like you're having a really tough night, and a tough past couple of days as well. I am really sorry to hear that things have been going pretty bumpy lately, especially in regards to not getting through to Helpline service.
Can I ask you what you mean when you say you need to be out of your body? I can imagine that such a feeling would be incredibly draining on your mood, especially right now.
sending all my support
Thought I'd give you a heads up that I am about to log off for the night, but if you are feeling in distress or crisis at all tonight, please don't hesitate to call a helpline. I know you had a lot of difficulty with them earlier in the week, but I think the phone lines are a lot less busy around this time of night and day of the week.
I'm sorry to hear that you are not feeling ok at the moment. Could you please confirm your safety to the community?
If not, please call a crisis support line, like KHL or Suicide Call Back Service if you are in crisis.
Sending my thoughts and support
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