Hi @PleaseStay !
I can see that you find it hard to accept support, and that may be due to contradicting feelings like @Courtney-RO has mentioned. I can only imagine how difficult that must feel.
I hope you're having a good weekend so far. This forum is a place where anyone can talk and openly discuss how they feel. Were happy to show you support and be here for you to the extent that you feel comfortable.
If you don't mind me asking, is there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about?