Hi @Almond_Quokka
Your friends are lucky to have you around and thank you for sharing what you have been feeling lately with us. It can sometimes be hard being "that support friend" that everyone goes to when they are having a hard time too, but as you said it is also a privilege and just shows how much they trust you and how much they value your words and support. But it can also get tiring, and sometimes when you are struggling yourself, it can be hard when you don't have "that support friend".
You mentioned not feeling like you have anyone close to that you can open up to and feel comfortable doing so. There is nothing wrong with feeling like this, and you are someone who does deserve that type of support.
Based on my personal experience and what you have shared, I'm wondering if you think your current friends could be "that support friend" for you? and that they may just be waiting for you to open up?
I'm not sure how close you currently feel to them, but I'm sensing that they already feel close to you. After all, they are comfortable and feel close enough to you to come to you for their problems and issues and they see you as their support network. If that's the case, then I'm sure they would reciprocate that type of relationship if they felt that you were seeking it.
It will be uncomfortable the first few times you open up but I reckon that's normal and expected, and only by starting will you overcome that feeling and hopefully find that you have those deep connections already. If your friends are opening up to you and not hiding what's going on in their life, then there should be much less pressure for you to feel like you need to hide what's going on. If they are your friends, they will care and listen. Its always just kind of awkward to open up about your feelings and hardships when you haven't done so in the past (I've had this experience before because my friend group is close, but don't really talk much about that kind of stuff, and I had to just push myself to start that conversation), but it will be worth it once you do.
I hope you are feeling okay and getting by, and that my two cents provide some value. Lets us know how you are going! 💙
