Hey @Lime_Dinosaur
I can hear your pain, confusion, and frustration. It must be a really difficult thing to go through. Breakups can be so painful, especially when it comes out of nowhere.
I'm hearing that you feel completely blindsided and the fact that you had planned your future with him is making it much harder to understand and to let him go. Sorry that you are going through this.
I want you to know that it's ok to sit with your pain while you sort through your thoughts and feelings about the breakup. It may sound cliche, but time truly can heal. It's okay to cry or scream into a pillow or eat a tub of ice cream or binge watch your favourite shows for hours. In these moments though, try to surround yourself with others. Do you have family or friends you could go to for comfort and support?
It's also completely normal to feel anxious or worried about your future relationships. Especially after a long-term relationship where you've spent so much time with this one person and planned your futures together, it can feel impossible to imagine being with anyone else. With time, you will find the right person. Someone who truly loves you for you. With your ex, perhaps you may have learned things about yourself and what you need in a relationship and these things can help you find someone compatible in future relationships? Or maybe you want to take this as an opportunity to get to know yourself more, grow, and find new hobbies that you can enjoy on your own.
I hope you feel better soon. It will come with time. ❤️❤️ Look after yourself and do some self-care. What things do you do when you're feeling down? Maybe a face-mask? A nice bubble bath? Journalling? Watching a funny show? Go on a walk?
