Hi @rivai,
It's really unfortunate to hear how you are feeling about your friend group. I take it your friends have been quite withdrawn and it sounds really frustrating. I think it's impossible to know what someone else is going through and it sounds like your friend group are much more fun and happy to be around physically, as opposed to online where you are not getting much.
I think it is worth that you check up on your friends - perhaps it could really make their day if you ask them "How are you feeling?" or "You seem down". They are still your friends and I'm sure that they view you as a good and loyal friend to them. From your past experiences, it sounds as if they weren't the friends for you, but that is alright.
To me, it's never about the number of friends, always the qualities of a friend. Even if it is just one. You are clearly a social person and I absolutely love that.
I hope this helps, and I hope you and your friend group can feel comfortable with good company. 😁
