Hi @Lily_RO,
Thanks for replying to my post!
Spending some time in the pool has helped me forget about how sad I've been feeling so I've been in the pool every day this week. But as soon as I come out it all comes flooding back and I feel the same again. I've felt this way a lot and it's been getting worse every year, but I was able to blame it on uni stress. Currently I've paused working for a couple months and I have all the time in the world to do what I want but I'm struggling to do anything or get out of bed.
It's hard to talk to my therapist about it because I'm not good at opening up and I never seem to have an appointment when I'm in a low period. I will try when I next go though to bring it up.
I've been told I have OCD, anxiety, a lot of self hate and self-inflicted pressure and all of that often makes me wish most days that I could see the world "normally" or "carefree".
I'm grateful for this space and the opportunity to anonymously vent.
