Hi @Unknown_2006
I'm a trans guy and I remember being a kid and although I didn't know what being trans was or that you could be anything other than your sex, I still loved wearing boys clothes and having a boy's haircut and being seen as the 'strong one'.
You don't need to make any decision about your gender right now or commit 100% to presenting any kind of way but here's some ideas for ways you could explore your gender to see what you like the most:
When I was first exploring my gender I watched a lot of trans guys and non-binary people on youtube to get an insight into their experiences and feelings to see how well I could relate. I also experimented with a couple of my friends using a boy's name for me and he/him pronouns to see how that made me feel. If you don't feel comfortable or safe experimenting with people you know, you could even join an online group or in-person queer group and try out some new pronouns and name with them. You could also try buying a binder which uses compression to hide the shape of your breasts, but please make sure to research proper binding technique; it's safe if you follow the guidelines but can become unsafe if you bind too often or with one that's too small. And this is a little less related to experimenting with gender, but when I was figuring out my gender and even still now, I loved working out and doing martial arts because I loved feeling strong and being part of a very male-dominated area, so this could possibly be something you'd enjoy too.
I think the biggest thing to keep in mind is that nothing has to be permanent and it's perfectly okay to experiment with your gender and spend as much time as you need trying things out before making any kind of decision - and even then it's perfectly okay to change your mind. There's no rush to figure things out and I wish you luck in your journey ❤️
